
Anxieyote
Sobriety over everything else • 31 • Midwest
- Mar 24, 2021
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My brain shouldn't have the capacity to experience sadness at the level that it does, or process things like "the bigger picture". It's aware of too many things that aren't advantageous for survival; at least not mine. The fact that it can consider suicide seems like a fatal flaw in and of itself.
Intelligence and understanding are an absolute curse.
I'm safe. I have a home. I have access to food and water. Therefore, I should be content. I should be like a parakeet—content and happy to live my life out in this protective cage.
But the brain just continues to process and overthink, and wonder what could be, what should have been, what I could have done differently…it's destroying itself.
Faulty wiring. I need brain surgery to remove the parts that are causing me pain. They serve no purpose, and I know I could be happy if those parts were turned off altogether.
Intelligence and understanding are an absolute curse.
I'm safe. I have a home. I have access to food and water. Therefore, I should be content. I should be like a parakeet—content and happy to live my life out in this protective cage.
But the brain just continues to process and overthink, and wonder what could be, what should have been, what I could have done differently…it's destroying itself.
Faulty wiring. I need brain surgery to remove the parts that are causing me pain. They serve no purpose, and I know I could be happy if those parts were turned off altogether.