blkgunchick
Member
- Jun 10, 2025
- 41
I missed it here…
Dreamed of Catching the bus
Dreamed of Catching the bus
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QuincyME
Student
- Feb 23, 2024
- 121
Not good. I slept for two hours last night. When I got home from work my brain started "sizzling" uncontrollably. If I didn't have neighbors, I could have easily grabbed the gun underneath my coffee table and pulled the trigger which I've been unable to do otherwise.
Blahaj
Member
- Jan 2, 2025
- 24
I mean I doubt many people on the suicide forums are going to be doing swell, but I've been alright, all things considered. I've had a few dreams/nightmares of CTBing myself... don't know how to feel about them though. I've had a lot of intrusive thoughts about CTBing lately.
lost_one
Once
- Nov 3, 2024
- 183
Mr. Snrub
Specialist
- Aug 10, 2025
- 318
DeletedUser123xyz
just a dream within a dream…
- Aug 16, 2025
- 48
ma0
How did I get here?
- Dec 20, 2024
- 666
I've come to the realization that I am a disgusting, revolting human being. How can I live like this?
I can't, is the answer.
Lyn
Momentary
- Mar 1, 2025
- 302
Bearable while on meds. But meds supply is not too big.
So just hanging on waiting for a miracle or for a final end. At least I have almost everything for it.
Jisatsu
黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
- Jan 5, 2025
- 2,012
NearlyIrrelevantCake
The Cake Is A Lie
- Aug 12, 2021
- 2,516
nool
He who has not tasted grapes says sour
- Aug 17, 2025
- 117
Honestly just lost in the haze of existing as I usually do. Bedrotting, scrolling through social media, the usual. Not living life, just going through the motions haha
blkgunchick
Member
- Jun 10, 2025
- 41
Smh
Same
Ooh
Yes, true…
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FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 48,490
No matter what I'll always find it so terrible and dreadful to exist and I just wish that I never suffered more than anything in this existence, to me existence will always be an abomination that just causes pain, problems and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I suffer simply from existing.
I really would never wish for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never wake again, I'll just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this deeply undesirable, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence is all that's positive, I always suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this cruel existence.Similar threads
