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TheHatedOne

TheHatedOne

Death is salvation
Sep 26, 2021
2,028
Only one week passed, and for me, it's already shittier than last year. I have felt despair and pain non stop.
At this point it is clear that it's going to be the worst year ever. That can change if I ctb successfully.
 
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Noctis

Noctis

I wish I'd done it years ago
Dec 15, 2021
308
It's a mixed bag. My grandmother is in the hospital and things don't look good. My antivax family keeps stirring up drama every time someone else in the family gets a booster.

But hey, I'm smoke free for one week now. So I got that going for me, which is nice.
 
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ClownMe

ClownMe

Don't Cry for Me, I'm Already Dead
Apr 7, 2021
20,561
Absolutely dreadful
 
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Wrennie

Wrennie

l
Dec 18, 2019
1,546
My brother got diagnosed with Covid and it turns out he has the same subpar immune system as I do, so he's deteriorating rapidly. My grandma is also starting to get dementia, and my mother is incredibly depressed because despite all of her efforts she can't help either of her children.

I also am still slowly dying from my diseases, so whoop-dee-doo. I'm pretty sure I won't make it to see 2023. :notsure:
 
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yive

yive

life is evil
Nov 6, 2020
695
terrible as always
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,546
For me, this year is just the same as the last one. I am very tired of life and I want to be free from this existence. I have never wanted to be alive and I never will. Life is just pointless suffering. I do not want any more days or years. The way I see it, to exist is to suffer.
 
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_Minsk

_Minsk

death: the cure for life
Dec 9, 2019
1,135
Haven't felt this much pain before, can't wait to leave this all, i really hate life
 
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Death is beautiful

Death is beautiful

Warlock
May 20, 2021
792
This year I got sn and for some reason it seems to me that my suicidal thoughts have weakened, I don't know if this is so, I hope this year will be the last for me
 
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Crazy4u

Crazy4u

Enlightened
Sep 29, 2021
1,318
it is slightly better but I have stronger willpower to ctb. I am more suicidal in May, June, November and December. This doesn't change. It is the same every year.

I wrote a short suicide note 1 hour ago. I am trying to ctb before May
 
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Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
2,473
Better and worse
 
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needed_

needed_

waiting for a miracle
Dec 17, 2021
804
it doesn't really feel like a new year except for the fact that I've celebrated NYE.. everything is the same
 
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Licoricepasta

Member
Dec 21, 2021
8
My brother got diagnosed with Covid and it turns out he has the same subpar immune system as I do, so he's deteriorating rapidly. My grandma is also starting to get dementia, and my mother is incredibly depressed because despite all of her efforts she can't help either of her children.

I also am still slowly dying from my diseases, so whoop-dee-doo. I'm pretty sure I won't make it to see 2023. :notsure:
So sorry. Sending you hugs.
 
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NearlyIrrelevantCake

NearlyIrrelevantCake

The Cake Is A Lie
Aug 12, 2021
1,629
Caught covid a second time this week, which sucks.

It's Omicron and very mild, which also sucks because it won't kill me like Delta almost did in September...
 
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Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
2,473
Caught covid a second time this week, which sucks.

It's Omicron and very mild, which also sucks because it won't kill me like Delta almost did in September...
Covid is a total dick that way
 
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G_Man

Member
Dec 25, 2021
13
I feel trapped in a loop of despair. The only thing that has changed compared to last year is that everything is worse.
 
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Depressed Werewolf

Depressed Werewolf

Tired bi disaster
Jan 8, 2022
1
My health has gotten much worse, I'm worried about my mom, and my sister is going to find out if she has cancer tomorrow. So my brain is back to trying to cope by being nearly fully apathetic, and I'm also putting on fake smiles so I don't worry my family about my own problems.
 
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CrestfallenMima

CrestfallenMima

Staring into the abyss
Dec 28, 2021
160
10 days already wasted, just 355 days left to waste
 
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Klee

Klee

Never play cards with a magician.
Apr 19, 2020
136
It's okay. I have winter blues. Trying to eat well and get sunshine.
 
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OnlyTheWind

OnlyTheWind

Serena / Meatball head
Aug 29, 2020
962
Everything is terrible and only going to get worse. Brain fog and lethargy have made it impossible for me to do anything I want to.
 
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blahblahuser1174

Member
Dec 21, 2021
13
it was okay. i got one good grade! haven't check the rest yet. i have a lot of anxiety and i feel paralyzed half the time. i just lay in bed bc my classes are remote.
 
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Of The Universe

Of The Universe

Specialist
Dec 31, 2021
382
As a woman of color,I try to be ready for any racism!
 
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E_Berwick

Member
Dec 8, 2020
11
Much shittier than I anticipated. I miss my cat so fucking much and it hurts so bad, all I want to do is give her one more forehead kiss. Okay and a hug, too. So alone in this world now, I'm surprised I haven't gone through with it yet.
 
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Hirokami

Hirokami

Out of order
Feb 21, 2021
607
Same shit, different year. I'm still struggling with insecurities and they've somehow gotten worse, especially in regards to my social anxiety and BDD. Depression is still there, too.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,378
Pretty bad. My mom caught covid as soon as the year began and even though I tested negative, I feel pretty sick myself and it's been pretty miserable. I think it's possibly a false negative too with how some of my symptoms have been.
 
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meetapple

meetapple

Mage
Jun 3, 2021
585
No real discernible difference despite my best efforts.
 
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Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
3,621
These are probably the worst times of my lifetime both globally and personally
 
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waitingforrest

Elementalist
Dec 27, 2021
842
I just ready to go at anytime. I don't want to see 2023, so I know this will be my last year. I don't even feel sad about it anymore. But, yeah. This year so far is shit. No surprise.
 
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ForeverLonely82

ForeverLonely82

Student
Dec 22, 2021
192
Nothing has changed it all remains the same as it did for the past decade. Just older.
Much shittier than I anticipated. I miss my cat so fucking much and it hurts so bad, all I want to do is give her one more forehead kiss. Okay and a hug, too. So alone in this world now, I'm surprised I haven't gone through with it yet.
I had to put my cat "Nova" down 3 days ago,she got feline leukemia...apparently she had it since birth as she hasn't been exposed to other cats. We tried saving her, but she just got worse, stopped eating, meowing in pain and weak I have crying spells at night. I would have much rather be taken away from here than her, She was too good of a cat to Die. If my life were taken and hers would be spared A friend would have cared for her, But alas I remain in this crap world we are forced to live in thanks to two selfish people who wanted to procreate.
 
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VoidDesirer22

VoidDesirer22

A dream inside a locked room
Sep 6, 2021
673
I have been gloomy in ways that do not fit the usual pattern, so it's a sign of what's to come.

I'm quite set on January of next year to go. But I'm wondering how plausible it is to go before May. It's one of the two for me, and May depends on how things go. But January is quite locked in.

I cannot fucking believe how easy this could be if I was a prodigy at something. I could earn all my money that way, plus have people care about me naturally for being fking awesome.
 
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E_Berwick

Member
Dec 8, 2020
11
Nothing has changed it all remains the same as it did for the past decade. Just older.

I had to put my cat "Nova" down 3 days ago,she got feline leukemia...apparently she had it since birth as she hasn't been exposed to other cats. We tried saving her, but she just got worse, stopped eating, meowing in pain and weak I have crying spells at night. I would have much rather be taken away from here than her, She was too good of a cat to Die. If my life were taken and hers would be spared A friend would have cared for her, But alas I remain in this crap world we are forced to live in thanks to two selfish people who wanted to procreate.
I'm sorry to hear of your cat. It's absolutely the worst thing to lose a feline friend.
 
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