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Eternal Oblivion
Student
- Nov 23, 2021
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My girlfriend is suicidal, and so am I, but for completely different reasons. My mind is sane but her's isn't.
This post is about her.
She has deep depression and tried several medications with no apparent improvement. She drinks a loot, on top of that medication. I was with her tomorrow night, I cooked for her and we watched BCS, she was drinking a couple of beers. After I dropped her off her place I went to mine and when I was preparing to sleep she messaged me super drunk saying she was gonna CTB. I went to her place immediately and when I arrived I saw that she was out of her mind. It took several hours for her to calm down and eventually she feel asleep. She kepd saying she didn't wanna live anymore, that it was not worth it. I could see how much pain she was in. She had brought several blades and wrote goodbye notes. I told her how bad was her method (almost introduced her to SS, lmao).
That was just one episode out of several recent ones. Never in my life I whitnessed a person so fucked up, it's even hard to describe. That depression is destroying her. Since I myself don't suffer from it I wouldn't know how to help her, don't even know if I can. My old self would just look for another girl but now I know pain.
When she talks, I listen. I treat her in a loving manner, always. I don't get spoked by those episodes but when she talks about suicide I don't know how to handle it. I try not to give her the prolife bullshit but also I wouldn't wanna encorage her.
I don't know what to do, so welcoming any advice that could help me navigate this situation.
This post is about her.
She has deep depression and tried several medications with no apparent improvement. She drinks a loot, on top of that medication. I was with her tomorrow night, I cooked for her and we watched BCS, she was drinking a couple of beers. After I dropped her off her place I went to mine and when I was preparing to sleep she messaged me super drunk saying she was gonna CTB. I went to her place immediately and when I arrived I saw that she was out of her mind. It took several hours for her to calm down and eventually she feel asleep. She kepd saying she didn't wanna live anymore, that it was not worth it. I could see how much pain she was in. She had brought several blades and wrote goodbye notes. I told her how bad was her method (almost introduced her to SS, lmao).
That was just one episode out of several recent ones. Never in my life I whitnessed a person so fucked up, it's even hard to describe. That depression is destroying her. Since I myself don't suffer from it I wouldn't know how to help her, don't even know if I can. My old self would just look for another girl but now I know pain.
When she talks, I listen. I treat her in a loving manner, always. I don't get spoked by those episodes but when she talks about suicide I don't know how to handle it. I try not to give her the prolife bullshit but also I wouldn't wanna encorage her.
I don't know what to do, so welcoming any advice that could help me navigate this situation.