rikamonie

rikamonie

Experienced
Jun 3, 2020
290
"A happy girl who was always bright and cheerful always making people laugh"

so basically a load of bullshit lies that they made up about me in their own head because they refuse to see the pain and stress im actually going through :hug:
 
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Close_to_freedom

Close_to_freedom

Why the long face? Cause I don’t wanna live here.
May 19, 2020
418
LOL that would almost be like society doing a fucking 180 on us istg. It would be useful tho and very nice. For now it seems like a pipe dream sadly
Do you go on 4chan?
 
Close_to_freedom

Close_to_freedom

Why the long face? Cause I don’t wanna live here.
May 19, 2020
418
Barely lol, whenever I don't I sometimes see posts on reddit bout it.

why do you ask?
Because your frog. I lurk on /pol and /r9k. It's so toxic and every time I'm there for awhile, I feel worse mentally.
 
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Kevin_theFrog

Kevin_theFrog

Someone failing at school & in life
Jun 27, 2020
63
Because your frog. I lurk on /pol and /r9k. It's so toxic and every time I'm there for awhile, I feel worse mentally.
Yeah I get what u mean lol barely visit it cuz of the community in the first place, tho it can have some good stuff now and then. I'm not hardcore into it tho
I just rlly liked the sunglasses on this one
 
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TheBox

TheBox

Here I lie, on my own in a seperate sky.
Jun 3, 2020
10
"We knew he had issues, but never thought it would come to this..."

I hope they use my story to help normalize the discussion of mental health. I believe that's my real purpose in life.
 
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readytogo982

readytogo982

Member
Jun 8, 2020
18
Wasted potential.
 
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AnxietyAttack44

I just wanna go to my husband already.
Jun 5, 2020
1,092
"so unlucky.."
 
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Luchs

Luchs

kristallene Bergluft über verfallener Gruft
Aug 20, 2019
528
I don't normally try to view myself as others may see me because I'm usually unable to. Today I have some insight.

I think people would describe me after my death as someone who allowed his childhood trauma and other problems to cripple him and prevent him from having a life, that he willingly closed himself off from the world and locked himself in a room for years subsisting on disability money, a person who had few attachments and cared about very little, someone who died long before his body did.
Oh, what would I give to hear that.
 
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Chiyuki99

Chiyuki99

a nightmare dressed like a daydream
May 28, 2019
140
Honestly, people will probably be very shocked when I do it and they won't understand why I did it. They will talk about how young I was, how pretty, how intelligent and talented, about how bright my future would have been. But they will never find the words to actually describe why I did it and it is good that it's like that. I wouldn't wish to anyone to know what is going on in my head since I'm a young child, it is too much to bear.
 
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Bct

Bct

Disqualified from Being Human
Apr 20, 2020
419
Someone who was just too quiet & anti-social. Wasted his degree for some menial jobs.
 
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Jon86

Jon86

Specialist
Apr 9, 2018
369
Oh he died? He was a nice guy, not sure what happened to him, he disappeared years ago, I wonder what happened? Hmm, don't know, yeah I don't know either.

I've been isolated from friends for nearly a decade, I moved away, self isolated as my health and life declined on basically every level. Have like 3 or 4 Facebook posts in the last decade, i'm a ghost at this point, they won't know what to think, if they think about it at all, I suppose a few would know I struggled for a long time but most would be clueless.
 
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Sprite_Geist

Sprite_Geist

NULL
May 27, 2020
1,592
Probably not much. I have never had many people (close people that is) in my life, so there will be even less folks caring once I've gone. Especially since the last 2 years when the few that I had a connection with vanished.

The small number of folks who I used to be close with won't care - They didn't want to be friends anymore and have moved on about 2 years back. They have forgotten about me so it's likely they won't even know if anything has happened; given that they've cut me out of their lives. The rest of the people that are left in my life and that weren't close, like acquaintances, will probably have a generic response like: "Tragic loss!"... Then the world will carry on.
 
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Close_to_freedom

Close_to_freedom

Why the long face? Cause I don’t wanna live here.
May 19, 2020
418
Oh he died? He was a nice guy, not sure what happened to him, he disappeared years ago, I wonder what happened? Hmm, don't know, yeah I don't know either.

I've been isolated from friends for nearly a decade, I moved away, self isolated as my health and life declined on basically every level. Have like 3 or 4 Facebook posts in the last decade, i'm a ghost at this point, they won't know what to think, if they think about it at all, I suppose a few would know I struggled for a long time but most would be clueless.
I disappeared too
 
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SpottedPanda

SpottedPanda

I'm all about coffee and cigarettes
Jul 24, 2019
612
He was a lovely lad, always nice to everyone. He was suffering with schizophrenia, and had his fair share of traumatic experiences. I guess it got too much for him.
 
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Notwinnernotawin

Notwinnernotawin

Specialist
Apr 4, 2020
341
"That disgraced witch" or any other curse.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
She was a tragic case lol!
He was a kind and loving person... With a big heart. He just got lost along the way , tragedy.
I hate when they say that shit lol!
Oh he died? He was a nice guy, not sure what happened to him, he disappeared years ago, I wonder what happened? Hmm, don't know, yeah I don't know either.

I've been isolated from friends for nearly a decade, I moved away, self isolated as my health and life declined on basically every level. Have like 3 or 4 Facebook posts in the last decade, i'm a ghost at this point, they won't know what to think, if they think about it at all, I suppose a few would know I struggled for a long time but most would be clueless.
Lol! Right same here. Something similar.
 
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DeadButDreaming

DeadButDreaming

Specialist
Jun 16, 2020
362
I was basically invisible while I was alive. I made very little impression upon people. Most people wouldn't detect my passing.
 
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EraseRewind

EraseRewind

Circling the drain
May 13, 2020
225
Probably refer to me as a total piece of sh*t who got what he deserved.
 
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dmsdnd18

Member
Sep 26, 2019
48
I've been reading articles about people who have been killed where their family and friends all say the greatest things about them. And sure, maybe they all were kind and funny and doing something good, but it makes me think what my family and friends would say because if it was that it would be a lie. I've told so many people about my struggles with anxiety and depression but I bet they'd still be in denial. Like someone said I think people are afraid to say bad things about someone who has died so they stick to positives, even if it stretches the truth.
 
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¡!¡!¡!

Member
Jan 5, 2020
40
Very inaccurately. Whenever i was asked the typical "whats wrong" when everything became so unbearable that it was impossible to hide my low mood i got told "oh no, you cant be feeling that way/ you dont have such and such problem..." etc. No i was not "bragging" how depressed i am or anything like that. I never said i was suicidal irl. Comments like that made me stop talking about myself in general. Im unable to express how im feeling because i have so much to say and nothing at the same time. So i have no idea how other see me and what would be said about me.
 
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Deleted member 17949

Deleted member 17949

Visionary
May 9, 2020
2,238
Probably going to say they miss me and that I was loved, maybe that I was kind. There won't be any meaningful nice things said because there aren't many good qualities to me. Realistically a few people will probably be happy to see me go.
 
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lighthousekeeper

lighthousekeeper

Member
Jun 29, 2020
37
I live in a small town and I'm kind of known for being "weird" (I don't want to SD but I think I meet the criteria for schizotypal PD, I dress, behave and speak strangely)... I've never had any idea what people thought of me, I'm sure it's bad. They'll probably be relieved, I'm an unwelcome spectacle
 
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Irrelevant biologist

Member
Jun 3, 2020
90
Like anyone would even know who I was???

^^scroll to next obit^^
 
glittergore

glittergore

the sea, the sea
Jun 16, 2020
119
Probably "she had everything going for her" (cannot count the amount of times I've been told that by family, friends, and professionals) and that I was "defeated by her mental illness."

I certainly don't have everything going for me, and if I do end up CTB, my mental illness will be a part of it but not all. I'm misunderstood in life and I'll be misunderstood in death.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,721
I think the people who know me would react with disdain, pity, scorn, shock, and even anger to some degree. On the outside, I may look like someone who has his shit together and am accomplished and living well, but internally and within my world, it's a living hell. So with that I can imagine their reactions will be like:

"He had so much to live for!"
"I'd kill to have even half of his accomplishments, achievements!"
"What a waste of a life!"
"He should have reached out to me!"
"Suicide is NEVER an option!"

etc.
 
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InterstateFlowers

InterstateFlowers

Experienced
Apr 16, 2020
236
I don't know how people would describe me but I know I'll be mourned. In that aspect, I think I'm lucky? If you asked my teachers and classmates, I think they'd say something like "She was really kind and didn't look like she was suffering at all...".
 
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Isittimetogonola

Isittimetogonola

Kindness is a weakness to be taken advantage by al
Oct 22, 2019
198
One or 2 will be hurt beyond words. Some will say the typical, well he was crazy or wish we knew. Some will rejoice. Most wont care at all. It is my pain why I am leaving and has nothing to do with them so they really have absolutely no say so nor does their opinion matter. If it is such a big deal then they would have been there the few times I did reach out for help. So they can face that on their own.
 
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Theresa Riot

Theresa Riot

Member
Apr 5, 2020
38
I'd like to say that they would tell the truth that I was a mean, miserable bitch and good riddance. But with my luck people will get all gooey like she was such a lovely person who lived life to the fullest!

I hate it when people get all sentimental like "they had such a wonderful life!" Like obviously they didn't or they wouldn't be dead.
 
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I screwed up

Waiting for the damn bus
Sep 11, 2019
883
Why is the op name crossed out?? Has he been banned from the site ??