This is my main issue, if I were to CTB they would be left with such a great impact I don't know if they would be able to continue their lives. I don't wanna bring people along with me, they're fine with this world, I'm the one with issues. Why do other people have to suffer so greatly for one's death? It sucks dude.
Depends. If you're genuinely going to ctb and have no intentions of ever changing your mind, you're going to have to come to terms with the fact that you WILL hurt others. There's no easy way of saying it. People will feel hurt. They will feel betrayed. They will cry and grieve. You are going to have to learn to shoulder that burden, there's no easy way to say it.
If you are going to commit to this but want to minimize the pain as much as possible (you won't and can't prevent it entirely), you might have to start pushing people away. Give people a reason to want nothing to do with you. Burn bridges. If they hate you and want nothing to do with you, your death will hurt less and you'll be protecting them as best as you can.
Don't get me wrong. I'm only saying do this if you are genuinely going to ctb and not back out whatsoever. You are going to hurt them regardless when you die. If you can't handle that guilt then DONT ctb. Wait a bit longer. Try to work through it and recover. Live for them. All I'm saying is that unless you are willing to hurt those around you, you aren't ready. If you can't bring yourself to push them away and hurt their feelings now then you aren't adequately prepared for putting them through the real thing. It sucks. You don't want to hurt the people that care about you and, trust me, I don't want to hurt the people in my life either. But thats the cost.
