Help How to overcome SI

[SuicideKitty]

So I have my SN and shit. But I cant drink it! When it comes down to CTB, my brain starts to exaggerate, imagine my friends who love me(LOL!) and that I still have ways to live. Logically, I understand that this is all nonsense and illusions, but my brain continues to cling to these illusions. Are there any ways to reduce the SI level? I think about catching bus tomorrow or the day after if my life situation does not improve. And it is very stressful to fast for 10 hours to drink SN. I have benzos, can microdosing them help?

 

[angelalexandra]

ive found over time that ones brain coming up with ways why you should stay alive usually isnt quite the same thing as SI. SI to me at least is a lot more primal, its what stops you from stepping in front of a car, and it doesnt really kick in for more "abstract" methods like sn or medication overdoses (ask me how i know). i genuinely think it might be worth trying to talk to those friends you though of, or exploring those ways to try live a bit longer. if and when its really your time to go, your brain wont be able to think of reasons to keep living.

 

[SuicideKitty]

ive found over time that ones brain coming up with ways why you should stay alive usually isnt quite the same thing as SI. SI to me at least is a lot more primal, its what stops you from stepping in front of a car, and it doesnt really kick in for more "abstract" methods like sn or medication overdoses (ask me how i know). i genuinely think it might be worth trying to talk to those friends you though of, or exploring those ways to try live a bit longer. if and when its really your time to go, your brain wont be able to think of reasons to keep living.

I wish you was right. But none of these "friends" care about me. It's all illusions because of my fear.

 

[Vivir_O_No]

So I have my SN and shit. But I cant drink it! When it comes down to CTB, my brain starts to exaggerate, imagine my friends who love me(LOL!) and that I still have ways to live. Logically, I understand that this is all nonsense and illusions, but my brain continues to cling to these illusions. Are there any ways to reduce the SI level? I think about catching bus tomorrow or the day after if my life situation does not improve. And it is very stressful to fast for 10 hours to drink SN. I have benzos, can microdosing them help?

Crying does it for me.