Ethereal Knight
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- Jan 10, 2022
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this really seems to work. I want other people to give their feedbacks so we can maybe figure out if this is really legit.
it's like this:
1) you don't even need to be taking trazodone constantly, in fact I think it's better if you never take it and then take it suddenly.
2) dose is probably something like 100 to 200mg.
the typical dose for this drug is 150mg to treat depression and 25-100mg to treat insomnia.
after testing, I personally felt very dysphoric and super sad after taking 100mg, and very serene and peaceful after taking 200mg.
the difference between these two dosages for me was astonishing, but in both ways, it's useful: by feeling dysphoric I could easily CTB, and by feeling serenity I felt dettached from everything, including my own thoughts and anxiety.
I didn't take any other drug together. it was just trazodone alone.
but combining it with fluoxetine, paroxetine, pimozide, quinidine or ritonavir probably increases the dysphoric effects, as you'll learn below.
3) timing is important. this drug has a short half life, which means the effects go away quickly. plus, the first 4 to 6 hours may be very unconfortable (you may feel sleepness, nausea, flu-like symptoms) especially if you take a high dose (200mg), but these symptoms go away very quickly.
you can test different timings to see the result. you can do a test. maybe you can take it on the day before the CTB if you're gonna CTB in the morning, or take in the morning if you're gonna CTB at night,
it'll probably be so much easier to CTB.
the effectiveness os this strategy probably has to do with basically two things:
(1) one of its metabolites (called mCPP, or meta-chlorophenylpiprazine) can cause very bad dysphoria, sadness and depression;
(2) the emotional blunting / dullness or "robotization" that antidepressants in general cause can really help to be cold-blooded, serene, rational, calm and dettached during the CTB.
on availability:
trazodone is one of the most common drugs prescribed for insomnia. to get it, you probably just need to say that you have difficulty starting sleep and you want something that doesn't cause any weight gain like other TCAs do, and doesn't cause physical dependency like benzos do, or you can say that you have used trazodone before and wanna go back to using it. it should be fairly easy to get that prescription, because it's a relatively safe drug and it's not as dangerous in overdoses as other drugs, like amitriptyline, mirtazapine etc.
many people have felt horrible dysphoria by using trazodone. I'm one of those. then I researched and discovered that it was not a coincidence. there's an article wrote by a doctor that says clearly that trazodone can cause dysphoria, worsen depression and increase the chances self-harm. here's some images of the article
P.S.: an extra personal tip not related to trazodone: thinking about the person you love romantically, if there's anyone, who is ideally not with you anymore, may ignite the desire to CTB, especially if you think about hugging them on eternity and meeting them again on the other side. that's just my personal experience, though, and you'll have to find what works for you.
if you had an abusive parent or caregiver, you can also remember some of the most terrible things they done to you, you'll see how you were wronged without any chance of defense when you're still too small and dependent to do anything; the desire to kill your abusive parent or to undo the injustice may be a good fuel for the CTB.
it's like this:
1) you don't even need to be taking trazodone constantly, in fact I think it's better if you never take it and then take it suddenly.
2) dose is probably something like 100 to 200mg.
the typical dose for this drug is 150mg to treat depression and 25-100mg to treat insomnia.
after testing, I personally felt very dysphoric and super sad after taking 100mg, and very serene and peaceful after taking 200mg.
the difference between these two dosages for me was astonishing, but in both ways, it's useful: by feeling dysphoric I could easily CTB, and by feeling serenity I felt dettached from everything, including my own thoughts and anxiety.
I didn't take any other drug together. it was just trazodone alone.
but combining it with fluoxetine, paroxetine, pimozide, quinidine or ritonavir probably increases the dysphoric effects, as you'll learn below.
3) timing is important. this drug has a short half life, which means the effects go away quickly. plus, the first 4 to 6 hours may be very unconfortable (you may feel sleepness, nausea, flu-like symptoms) especially if you take a high dose (200mg), but these symptoms go away very quickly.
you can test different timings to see the result. you can do a test. maybe you can take it on the day before the CTB if you're gonna CTB in the morning, or take in the morning if you're gonna CTB at night,
it'll probably be so much easier to CTB.
the effectiveness os this strategy probably has to do with basically two things:
(1) one of its metabolites (called mCPP, or meta-chlorophenylpiprazine) can cause very bad dysphoria, sadness and depression;
(2) the emotional blunting / dullness or "robotization" that antidepressants in general cause can really help to be cold-blooded, serene, rational, calm and dettached during the CTB.
on availability:
trazodone is one of the most common drugs prescribed for insomnia. to get it, you probably just need to say that you have difficulty starting sleep and you want something that doesn't cause any weight gain like other TCAs do, and doesn't cause physical dependency like benzos do, or you can say that you have used trazodone before and wanna go back to using it. it should be fairly easy to get that prescription, because it's a relatively safe drug and it's not as dangerous in overdoses as other drugs, like amitriptyline, mirtazapine etc.
many people have felt horrible dysphoria by using trazodone. I'm one of those. then I researched and discovered that it was not a coincidence. there's an article wrote by a doctor that says clearly that trazodone can cause dysphoria, worsen depression and increase the chances self-harm. here's some images of the article
P.S.: an extra personal tip not related to trazodone: thinking about the person you love romantically, if there's anyone, who is ideally not with you anymore, may ignite the desire to CTB, especially if you think about hugging them on eternity and meeting them again on the other side. that's just my personal experience, though, and you'll have to find what works for you.
if you had an abusive parent or caregiver, you can also remember some of the most terrible things they done to you, you'll see how you were wronged without any chance of defense when you're still too small and dependent to do anything; the desire to kill your abusive parent or to undo the injustice may be a good fuel for the CTB.
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