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mayoxhen
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- Sep 22, 2023
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i talked a little about this in my last post, but while writing it i identified this is the only thing holding me back now.
i really believe my face is ugly, as i've always grown up with knowing i'm the "ugly" friend who never had people like her, ignored, used as a joke and no matter how much my mom tells me my face is pretty i just know to strangers i am not beautiful. and i really really don't want to die knowing people will see my face next to a memorial my family will put up when i die and be exposed to the internet.
i just really really want to make sure nobody can see my face. do i write that as my last wish that i don't want my face tied to my death?? it haunts me to think it will.
i really believe my face is ugly, as i've always grown up with knowing i'm the "ugly" friend who never had people like her, ignored, used as a joke and no matter how much my mom tells me my face is pretty i just know to strangers i am not beautiful. and i really really don't want to die knowing people will see my face next to a memorial my family will put up when i die and be exposed to the internet.
i just really really want to make sure nobody can see my face. do i write that as my last wish that i don't want my face tied to my death?? it haunts me to think it will.