How to make myself feel good about suicide

[SpaxeZ]

my life is fkd up. I'm 25. super lonely and have non curable dysfunction that makes it impossible to have a partner. I'm suicidal 24/7 but haven't found the perfect method yet. I sometimes read on suicide news to feel relatable and less bad about my decision. More suggestions are appreciated.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case I see ceasing to exist as something positive as it means permanently finding freedom from all the suffering existence causes and brings, I only see non-existence as desirable, I envy those who no longer exist. I just wish that suicide isn't so inaccessible, it's horrible and dreadful to me how it isn't straightforward to cease existing on our own terms, if we could easily cease existing in peace then to me suicide really would be something relieving.