Not trying to encourage you to do anything, however I feel like if you have to basically force yourself to do something then maybe you shouldn't. I understand though, and I've seen similar posts. But I believe ctb should always be a choice and it's technically your choice but if you must force yourself to lose hope it doesn't really feel like a choice does it? I feel like if you want to do this, it should come naturally. It's sad life has even come to this but instead of forcing yourself to lose hope, it should naturally be lost without having to do that. And if it doesn't go away, maybe you should stay. But all of this is my personal opinion and it's your life. Just wanted to share my thoughts.
What, so I should just be miserable for another ~50 years? Lmao. I hate to be dismissive but I don't think your stance on forcing oneself is well thought out. I have to force myself to get out of bed, eat, brush my teeth, etc, should I not do those things either?
I understand your perspective, obviously what I said doesn't apply to EVERYTHING but feeling forced to live and feeling forced to die are still being forced. But after reading your reply I understand what you mean now, that the hope isn't "real" hope but manufactured from society and its expectations. Maybe you're right that my stance isn't well thought out, I am like half asleep right now. I just feel a certain way about force since my whole life is spent forced to do things I don't really want to do, and that's why I always felt if living shouldn't be forced, neither should dying. Anyways I understand where you're coming from and hope I made sense. It sucks society makes us feel shame about it when this shitty world is the reason people want to die to begin with.
Yes, you do make sense. I understand what you mean and agree that it is unfortunate when one is forced to do anything, especially something as consequential as living or dying. Sorry I was a little aggro I'm just really pissed off at life rn
It's okay. I think everyone here is.
