How to know if you really want to die?

[bleachglitter]

I feel like i want to die. My whole family seems disappointed in me. i have no friends. Suffering from a magnitude of mental illnesses and trauma. depressed since i was around 8-ish. No real reason to keep living, except for the fear of hurting my family. But when i look at suicide resources sometimes i just feel like i could keep going. But why would i want to? im miserable. How do i know for sure that i do really want to die.

 

[FuneralCry]

I believe that it is just a feeling you have and you are certain about your decision. In my case, nothing would ever make me want to live and I prefer the sound of non existence so I know for certain that I want to die. I'm sorry you are suffering so much. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[CommitSudoku]

What suicide resources did you look at and felt that way? I'm not sure though for your last question. Survival instinct likely makes us all question ourselves no matter what point we're at. For me personally, I know I want to die for a number of reasons. It brings me peace, I've wanted it for years, life keeps getting worse for me, and I foresee no future I'd like to be a part of and there's nothing I want to do enough holding me back, it's simply inability and lack of resources. So maybe start by examine your life and if there are still things you'd like to try/do. And examine what is making you miserable and if it can be changed. Chronic pain can't, but other things are possible with time. If you haven't tried therapy that might be a great start since you are so uncertain.

 

[NoLightRemains]

It feels like a question only you can answer for yourself as everyone's circumstances and reasons for CTB are as unique as the individual. For me, the idea of nonexistence is pure bliss, but I also feel obligated to stick around for my closest connections. Maybe with enough time things could change, so I'm just holding onto shreds of hope that one day I can tolerate being alive.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

To me, if you're still asking whether or not to ctb, then it's not time to go yet.

You can always change your mind to end it, but once you end it, you can never change your mind.

 

[Yann]

Wondering this myself. Life is so painful and I just want to rest so badly. I have tried really hard to make life worth living for myself but it just doesn't happen. I am so worried about the people in my life who I am leaving behind. How do I know when CTBing is finally worth it?

Hope you find the answer you need OP.

 

[lmon]

If when you wake up from a dreamless sleep, you think, "I wish that could last forever"

 

[Red Scare]

If when you wake up from a dreamless sleep, you think, "I wish that could last forever"

Damn, I feel that

 

[HappyForever?]

I don't think there's a way to be sure. You may have doubts about committing suicide because of SI and not because you're not ready to go.

 

[jimmy7754]

I don't think there's a way to be sure. You may have doubts about committing suicide because of SI and not because you're not ready to go.

I believe this is true.

 

[Eternal Oblivion]

I got down the road of suicide thought about an year ago. At first I was mad, angry with life, feeling that things was stolen from me. I suffered greatly in this year but also had good moments, and it gave me time to start to realize that what I want the most is not to want anything. I feel very calm now, and as the gentleman said above, I don't forsee any future I'd like to be a part in, so I guess i'm becoming ready.

My point is that you should take your time and analise things very carefully, specially since you are young.