Help How To Get Through The Feeling Everything is Okay Before Committing?

[OutOfThisBody]

So I am going to do it very soon, but things that made me suicidal before don't upset me as much now. I think it's because I know I'm leaving soon. But, I know if I don't kill myself, I'm going to feel just as bad about my issues as I did before.

How do I push through that feeling of contentment?

 

[Mooncry]

I second this. If anyone figures it out, let me know too, please.

Edit: I know it's mostly SI talking, since your brain obviously doesn't want you to die. So make sure to be aware of that. Not that it really helps, but identifying SI versus true feelings is a good first step.

 

[Blueberry Panic]

Know that the feeling is temporary.

 

[ghostxheart]

My first attempt was when I was 10 or 11. The thing that pushes me most is how little things have actually changed from being shit. Different kinds of shit sure, but shit nonetheless. And it's seemingly always my fault, so I believe the world would be better off without someone like me. Any time things seem to be going fine, it turns out it's just another delusion. Knowing that, I feel my existence is meaningless and if there truly is a god and everyone has a purpose, then mine isn't important and is easily replaced.

 

[notreallybored]

ב''ה,
"Survival Instinct" is kind of nebulous. Maybe everyone is going to say something different but, when you've been through it forever, that's the relief of (delusionally until accomplished) thinking, perhaps 'emotionally,' that you've finally solved the intractable problems, that there is nothing to worry about or feel troubled with.

Well then, take a look outside, take a look at your bank account, enough in there for retirement? Functional and supportive relations with others? There's plenty to be worried about.