Consciousness and self awareness are the only things that allow you to perceive the positives and negatives of existence. You can only feel the way you do because you were given life in the first place and were allowed to exist and experience time.
Without that prospective, the endless void is the greatest form of suffering I can imagine. You don't know that life was ever good or bad or that it ever was. It will be just something that exists that you not only are unaware of but can never have.
Pray that the endless void comes with no awareness. Because if you keep your mind.... endless nothingness is unfathomable suffering with no escape. Not this peaceful sleep that is romanticized by so many.
Mmm. Well, just get your hands on the SN and you'll be set. That's the hardest part in terms of the journey for most people especially as it gets more and more regulation. After that, you actually have options. You can take it or never take it. Up to you. But you'll have the choice. No harm done.
why do i have to live another second? i don't .
a lot of non-suicidal people don't understand us suicidal people and only when they suffer badly enough will they then understand that suicide can be rational.
humans can't understand another's suffering or beliefs until they immerse themselves for a long time into these.
likewise even on here many can't understand that some humans will go through a hell that is a trillion times worst than the worst hell one can imagine. to me watching a clickbait "enjoyable" video or eating a sandwich is not even worth 1 second of the worst pain much less years of the unending constant worst pain . to me these and other pleasurable addictions are what lead to the worst trap the worst torture. and these distract me steal my time fool me brainwash me to not realize reality and what i need to do.
Non-existence forever is the escape from a hell a quintillion times worse than the worst one can imagine and so the ultimate perfection and ultimate bliss
if you don't exist you can't suffer ever. if you are alive you can suffer extremely and you have constant needs like for food, shelter, boredom, showering, cleaning etc to keep away pain and suffering. suffering and pain are the default setting for life or existence .so Non-existence is a much better state to be in to not exist
no human alive now existed before 1859 , every one of those seconds for 13.8 billion years, none had any problems or suffering any of those seconds. i didn't , no human existed for 13.8 billion years and no human suffered even a second of that 13.8 billion years.
Non-existence forever means there is no you or me . i can't suffer if i don't exist there is no me to experience any void or anything .
Non-existence forever is the best thing by a quadrillion times because only then can one not suffer the constant worst pain that is a quadrillion times worse than one can imagine or remember. eternal Non-existence is as good as the worst torture is bad.
permanent non-existence is the opposite of life and existence and all the evils , injustice , diseases, tortures, unbearable pain, extreme suffering that only exists in life and this evil world .
i don't want any part of evil life and this evil world and i detest it i have no words : Non-existence forever is the escape from a hell a quintillion times worse than the worst one can imagine and so the ultimate perfection and ultimate bliss
why do i have to live another second? i don't . why do i have to live another second even if there were no suffering ? i don't. no one can convince i have to live another second nor that i have to want to live another second
a human life is just a blip. but i can't go through any extreme torture
