How to fully recover from major depressive episode

[Scythe]

Basically a few years back I had a major depressive episode where I couldn't do anything at all and didn't want to do anything at all. I'm better now, but I'm not at the state I was before. Frankly I don't know if I can go back to how I was before. I would like to try though.

I am unfortunately without drugs or meds or therapy. Though I know 99% chance therapy won't do jack shit. I have things I want to do but I just cannot bring myself to do. I got alcohol, and that's it. Not doing cigs, can't stand those.

 

[abcdefg789]

Please I would love to know how to recover from a major depresive episode! I am stuck in one and can't get out. Prescription drugs don't help and I'm also skeptical about therapy as well.

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

I am unfortunately without drugs or meds or therapy.

I have a method but it only works if you havent been desensitized to synthetic painkillers

pinching yourself (usually in bed) or burning yourself over a candle flame (not to the extend of burn damage tho) will cause pain but it will cause your body to release painkillers that also dampem emotional pain

Crying also does this but i imagine we already do a lot of that so its harder to control and we are less sensitive to the painkillers released from doing that

As for becoming as "happy and energetic" as you previously were. Dont do that. Comparing yourself to a better version of yourself could get you killed

Gotta realize that you will never be like that again because whatever changed you is now part of you

Instead take baby steps and take care of immediate needs and realize that is adequate. You dont need to be like before