Help How to deal with SI

[PandaBe]

Does anyone know good ways to either ignore, change, or not have SI. I've been very close to ctb but i always stop because of SI im not sure what to do and I can't use alcohol or drugs So if anyone has any recommendations that would be helpful

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't think it's possible to fully get rid of the survival instinct as we are all programmed to survive even if one is aware that suicide is what they truly wish for. I imagine that many who succeeded in ctb had acess to a reliable method they felt confident in and they just got so determined to leave, they just knew it was the right time, I envy those people as it certainly is so unnecessarily difficult to die.