Help how to choose if i should live?

[nayomi]

like idk why should i live.
i know i can get over my problems and enjoy life but i feel like i dont even want that. like there is not reason no matters what i am doing

 

[moriix]

i can relate, im struggling with the same problem. like technically I know I have it in me to turn my life around and I even have the resources to do so but I just. cant bring myself to care

is there anything you enjoy/like/look forward to in life? it can be anything, however small. at some point the only thing that kept me going were characters in my head and I was very attached to them (i had maladaptive daydreaming since I was a kid so i have a whole universe in my head) and didn't want to ctb because I'd lose them, and i also really want to put them out into the world through art before im gone. is there something like this for you? it can be hard to motivate yourself to get over problems when you see no reward at the end of the tunnel so perhaps looking for a small reward like that could help

 

[deadanddecomposing]

i can relate, im struggling with the same problem. like technically I know I have it in me to turn my life around and I even have the resources to do so but I just. cant bring myself to care

is there anything you enjoy/like/look forward to in life? it can be anything, however small. at some point the only thing that kept me going were characters in my head and I was very attached to them (i had maladaptive daydreaming since I was a kid so i have a whole universe in my head) and didn't want to ctb because I'd lose them, and i also really want to put them out into the world through art before im gone. is there something like this for you? it can be hard to motivate yourself to get over problems when you see no reward at the end of the tunnel so perhaps looking for a small reward like that could help

Cool to hear I'm not the only one who stays alive in large part due to maladaptive daydreaming. The people in my head feel more safe and comfortable than anyone in real life, which is pretty sad, I'll admit. Their opinions matter to me more than a lot of real life people, which is absurd.

 

[pond]

i know i can get over my problems and enjoy life but i feel like i dont even want that

If it doesn't matter either way and you know that you can do exactly that, then you could try that first and then see how you feel from that point on imo. Maybe things will feel different (more positive) than how you envision a "fixed" version of your life would be like, since you'd be putting yourself out there and making big changes to your routine.

If you get to the point where you feel like you've "fixed" what you can but are still unsatisfied, you will probably still be at a better place in your life. And maybe even come across something you're mildly curious about or enjoy doing.

If you have the energy for it ofc. It would require you to sacrifice your time and energy in the beginning but I feel like most people would overall feel better after the change and that it was at least worth doing, even if the desire to CTB is still there. Especially if they know what helps them "enjoy life."

 

[nayomi]

i can relate, im struggling with the same problem. like technically I know I have it in me to turn my life around and I even have the resources to do so but I just. cant bring myself to care

is there anything you enjoy/like/look forward to in life? it can be anything, however small. at some point the only thing that kept me going were characters in my head and I was very attached to them (i had maladaptive daydreaming since I was a kid so i have a whole universe in my head) and didn't want to ctb because I'd lose them, and i also really want to put them out into the world through art before im gone. is there something like this for you? it can be hard to motivate yourself to get over problems when you see no reward at the end of the tunnel so perhaps looking for a small reward like that could help

i enjoy lots of stuff i just not care enough to go through pain

If it doesn't matter either way and you know that you can do exactly that, then you could try that first and then see how you feel from that point on imo. Maybe things will feel different (more positive) than how you envision a "fixed" version of your life would be like, since you'd be putting yourself out there and making big changes to your routine.

If you get to the point where you feel like you've "fixed" what you can but are still unsatisfied, you will probably still be at a better place in your life. And maybe even come across something you're mildly curious about or enjoy doing.

If you have the energy for it ofc. It would require you to sacrifice your time and energy in the beginning but I feel like most people would overall feel better after the change and that it was at least worth doing, even if the desire to CTB is still there. Especially if they know what helps them "enjoy life."

fixed versio is being always happy and never suffer i guess