How to be numb?

[Aliali1992]

Can you give me some advice if you are in my situation. I've decided not to kill myself and i don't have suicidal thoughts but i need a way to cope with the pain of depression. Every breath i take is like absolute hell and horror. And i don't aspire to be happy anymore i just want to be numb. To react to everything with "meh". I'm on meds and therapy. Meds just prevent the worst. Therapy is going nowhere. I can't work out because of this fucking lock-down here in Germany. all i have is music. Any thoughts?

 

[Niftypoint124]

Numbness doesn't strike me as a long-term solution. I think we have a silly idea we should be happy all the time, but that's not really how happiness works. I try to shoot for mediocre/content - not that I don't want things to be better than that, but it seems like an even-keel.

If you've been seeing your therapist for a while and odn't feel like you're making progress, it may be time to seek treatment from someone else. Have you discussed how you feel about your therapy progress with your therapist?

Are you open to working out at home? Zuzka Light has her own paid site nowadays, but there's tons of her workout videos available for free on YouTube - most of which are no more than 15 minutes, if you need something shorter to get you started.

Also, might be good to stick around the Recovery Discussion area instead. :)

 

[Disappointered]

Can you give me some advice if you are in my situation. I've decided not to kill myself and i don't have suicidal thoughts but i need a way to cope with the pain of depression. Every breath i take is like absolute hell and horror. And i don't aspire to be happy anymore i just want to be numb. To react to everything with "meh". I'm on meds and therapy. Meds just prevent the worst. Therapy is going nowhere. I can't work out because of this fucking lock-down here in Germany. all i have is music. Any thoughts?

This is pretty much exactly what my life is like. I play video games and try to stay in bed as long as possible to create a kind of numbness buffer zone between myself and the world.. however, making my mind entirely numb and free from memories and disturbing thoughts has yet to be achieved. in any event, i agree with the above poster that numbness cannot be a long term solution.

 

[flower]

I'm sorry I don't have any advice, but being numb isn't as fun as it sounds. I used to wish for the same thing, but then some meds actually made me unable to feel anything and it made me relapse into cutting because I needed to feel something desperately, as emo as that sounds. it was such an uncomfortable experience not being able to have any emotions at all.

 

[NeverGoodEnuff]

I was hoping for numb. What is now working for me, and quite well, is I have discovered "I don't care". I don't care if someone doesn't like me. I don't care what they think of my activities, thoughts and beliefs.

Now, all I care about is me and I am going to do what I want to do, not what they expect of me. POO ON THEM!

I got mad. At them. Not at myself for a change. That did it.

 

[Wayfaerer]

drugs is the best way to feel (comfortably) numb.

 

[_Kaira_]

I can't provide much, as I have not found a more solid way myself.

However, I find weed to be a good way to chill out. I don't get access to any often though :\