NSFW How the actual fuck do you hang yourself. I'm honestly losing my patience. What the fuck is it that I don't get?

[Insomniac]

I STABBED my leg 4 times yesterday. Out of Hurt because I'm being scapegoat by my bitch family again. And those were deep wounds. I was bleeding so much I could see to white stuff. so much of it.

I then drew out 30ml of blood from my arms with a fucking syringe to try and pass out but I couldn't reach 100ml (you pass out at 100ml).
I took me dozaines of tries to get to 30ml.

So apparently I can handle 4 scalpel stabs in my legs and 30 needles stabs in my arms but I can't push a fucking chair to hang myself?

How do people actually hang themselves. Hann? HOW? HOW?

How is it possible that I can stab myself so deeply and savagely but can't hang myself? Makes zero sense.

I see live videos of people partial hang themselves in 3 minutes and I'm like what. What the fuck. How.

I'm having a really really bad day.

 

[FuneralCry]

It does make hanging sound easy when you hear about how many people have succeeded with that method, but in reality it really is so difficult. I think that if I knew the answer, I would already be gone. The fear of failure is what holds me back from attempting. I'm sorry that you suffer so unbearably. This life is so cruel and unfair and I understand being desperate to leave. I hope that you find what you are looking for.

 

[LoveYoux]

Oh man, there's so much frustration pouring out of you, it's not nice but it's good, you're getting it out x

I'm sorry that you've felt the urge to harm yourself in such a way, it's brilliant that you've covered your wounds, just make sure they're clean if you can x

You'll be alright, whatever happensx

 

[MildenWarden]

I feel you, I feel your frustation, I can't seem to be ready to push the chair away, that's why I am trying partial hanging but it's hard and tricky for me to get it, getting the sweet spot is hard as hell maybe because I am a bit more fat than other people, I don't know, but whatever. I hope you find the peace you want, much love

 

[lostmyacc]

Most hanging videos I have seen are pretty grim and gruesome .. Look like done with spare of moment and not much pre-thought. I suppose people who attempt hanging are mostly desperate. IE Prisons.

 

[Lebensunwertes]

There's a mega thread on hanging, you should probably research it there. Partial hanging requires proper noose placement and then solid hanging point. If done correctly with sufficient pressure on the carotid artery the loss of consciousness is pretty quick and the rest follows.

 

[Worndown]

Most hanging videos I have seen are pretty grim and gruesome .. Look like done with spare of moment and not much pre-thought. I suppose people who attempt hanging are mostly desperate. IE Prisons.

That is probably why they succeed. A quick decision and quick action. SI cannot overpower them.

 

[miserableforever]

You're so hard on yourself :( I have no advice really. Hope your leg doesn't hurt too much.

 

[Darkover]

you obviously don't want to die by hanging otherwise you'll of done it by now, try find a different method

 

[Alex6216]

There's a guide called 'darknet bible', it tells you how to order stuff from the darknet.
You could order 10g of GHB and xanax...

 

[Insomniac]

you obviously don't want to die by hanging otherwise you'll of done it by now, try find a different method

Maybe the Avicii method fits more my vibe

There's a guide called 'darknet bible', it tells you how to order stuff from the darknet.
You could order 10g of GHB and xanax...

What is GHB? I have xanax

 

[nameeater]

I'm sorry to hear how much you're struggling. I hope your leg heals well, make sure to clean the wound and change the bandages often.

Also, is your pfp who I think it is? Interesting choice if so lol

 

[Insomniac]

Interesting choice if so lol

It's because it goes with the username "insomniac"

I have a coffee addiction and tbh the avi in itself is pretty cool/chill (the guy himself is mental obviously)

 

[Julgran]

I STABBED my leg 4 times yesterday. Out of Hurt because I'm being scapegoat by my bitch family again. And those were deep wounds. I was bleeding so much I could see to white stuff. so much of it.

I then drew out 30ml of blood from my arms with a fucking syringe to try and pass out but I couldn't reach 100ml (you pass out at 100ml).
I took me dozaines of tries to get to 30ml.

So apparently I can handle 4 scalpel stabs in my legs and 30 needles stabs in my arms but I can't push a fucking chair to hang myself?

How do people actually hang themselves. Hann? HOW? HOW?

How is it possible that I can stab myself so deeply and savagely but can't hang myself? Makes zero sense.

I see live videos of people partial hang themselves in 3 minutes and I'm like what. What the fuck. How.

I'm having a really really bad day.

This sounds truly horrible! Could you try SN or N instead?

 

[Insomniac]

This sounds truly horrible! Could you try SN or N instead?

No SN or N in my country. I live in a third world country:(

 

[Julgran]

No SN or N in my country. I live in a third world country:(

I see! How about the charcoal method? It sounds quite peaceful, and it seems to be easier than the inert gas methods, such as helium.

 

[Insomniac]

I see! How about the charcoal method? It sounds quite peaceful, and it seems to be easier than the inert gas methods, such as helium.

my mom has given clear instruction to the chauffeur to not let me drive. She thinks I can't drive but I can actually.
I even have my driver license ut she is just a bitch

 

[Julgran]

my mom has given clear instruction to the chauffeur to not let me drive. She thinks I can't drive but I can actually.
I even have my driver license ut she is just a bitch

Do you mean that you would have to drive a long distance in order to buy charcoal? That's a shame.

 

[lostmyacc]

That is probably why they succeed. A quick decision and quick action. SI cannot overpower them.

Yep. Most suicides on gore sites. On video of some kind, CCTV. Recorded. Live stream. Decisive action 95% of the time. Usually after very little talk or anything just they went for it.

 

[Insomniac]

Do you mean that you would have to drive a long distance in order to buy charcoal? That's a shame.

You can't do the charcoal method just about anywhere! It's very dangerous and toxic if someone tries to get next to the fuming car or even worse tries to ope it. The person could die

You have to get somewhere very very isolated

Yep. Most suicides on gore sites. On video of some kind, CCTV. Recorded. Live stream. Decisive action 95% of the time. Usually after very little talk or anything just they went for it.

I can get that. Like when I stabbed my leg, I was if that kind of state. For example rn I couldn't stab myself because of SI but yesterday, pain took over SI.

So I have to wait for another bigger wave to hit me before I do it? Insane. The pain I felt yesterday was surreal. I can't imagine feeling anything worse than that. I litterally had my leg stitched just now.

Waiting for the next wave is scary. I just hope I won't do something imbecilistic like drinking bleach or rubbing alcohol.

 

[Eternaloblivionplea]

Would advice against hanging. Have tried to kill myself several times via hanging. You get passed the oh wait what if I injury myself and don't die bit. Then survival instinct kicks in. Personally would go with Nembutal, DDMP euthanasia cocktail or inert gases if I had access. For now only choice is to survive. Only potentially 50 or 60 years to go...

 

[Insomniac]

Only potentially 50 or 60 years to go...

Ain't no way.

 

[Deleted member 847]

Well If it makes feel better, I only had the courage to do it properly once and it didn't even kill me.
just crippled me a little. I have no idea how to overcome survival instinct. I don't even think I did that in my attempt. I just got "lucky":

, I was practicing and I thought I was in control all the time. "You're having fun with the "funny feeling" you're not actually killing yourself for real" That's what I told myself.
After a few attempts I had this thought "What if I stay in the dizziness/passing out feeling for one more second. One second shouldn't kill me. They said on google that it takes 10 seconds to die, not 5-6"
Then the dizziness came, and after 5-6 seconds I decided it was time to "abort" Before I could do that though I "woke-up" (felt more like teleporting) paralyzed on the floor. "What..." Then when I realized what happened, the first thing I did after I could move my body again (I couldn't move a muscle for a few seconds, If I remember) was immediately check my watch to see for how long I stayed unconscious. I counted 4 minutes. I had bitten my tongue and shit myself. And I have a stammer that I didn't have before. So there's my testimony. Maybe you can recreate my craziness.

 

[Darkover]

if you really wanted to hang yourself it's really not that hard to tie a rope

 

[Alex6216]

if you really wanted to hang yourself it's really not that hard to tie a rope

The ligature isn't the hard part. It's putting it on the carotid arteries and making sure they are given enough pressure for you to black out in 20 or less seconds

 

[yıη]

There's a guide called 'darknet bible', it tells you how to order stuff from the darknet.
You could order 10g of GHB and xanax...

Is it breaking rules to ask you how to find this guide? Could you tell me without telling me? xD

 

[Smart No More]

Is it breaking rules to ask you how to find this guide? Could you tell me without telling me? xD

It can be found on "the hidden wiki" but first do a lot of reading on "opsec" when using the darknet. The hidden wiki is full of sketchy fake links. They're spoofed pages, using "mirrors". Some site use mirrors legitimately in order to keep server loads in check amongst other things. However it's a system that can be abused by scammers as they can create their own mirror and put the links in places where unsuspecting web users might click them unwittingly. So yeah, read up on opsec. Get the Tor browser (else you won't be able to browse the dark net) and trust nothing and nobody. Always check every detail you can. There are ways you can verify things which will be explained in the dark net bible. If you want to find rolling info use Dread. It's a dark net kind of reddit style site which is geared towards markets and services. Don't let your guard down though. People are devilishly ruthless. Especially online.

 

[yıη]

It can be found on "the hidden wiki" but first do a lot of reading on "opsec" when using the darknet. The hidden wiki is full of sketchy fake links. They're spoofed pages, using "mirrors". Some site use mirrors legitimately in order to keep server loads in check amongst other things. However it's a system that can be abused by scammers as they can create their own mirror and put the links in places where unsuspecting web users might click them unwittingly. So yeah, read up on opsec. Get the Tor browser (else you won't be able to browse the dark net) and trust nothing and nobody. Always check every detail you can. There are ways you can verify things which will be explained in the dark net bible. If you want to find rolling info use Dread. It's a dark net kind of reddit style site which is geared towards markets and services. Don't let your guard down though. People are devilishly ruthless. Especially online.

You, my friend, are lovely. I appreciate you taking the time out of your day to tell me that. Thank you very much.

 

[Smart No More]

I STABBED my leg 4 times yesterday. Out of Hurt because I'm being scapegoat by my bitch family again. And those were deep wounds. I was bleeding so much I could see to white stuff. so much of it.

I then drew out 30ml of blood from my arms with a fucking syringe to try and pass out but I couldn't reach 100ml (you pass out at 100ml).
I took me dozaines of tries to get to 30ml.

So apparently I can handle 4 scalpel stabs in my legs and 30 needles stabs in my arms but I can't push a fucking chair to hang myself?

How do people actually hang themselves. Hann? HOW? HOW?

How is it possible that I can stab myself so deeply and savagely but can't hang myself? Makes zero sense.

I see live videos of people partial hang themselves in 3 minutes and I'm like what. What the fuck. How.

I'm having a really really bad day.

Partial hanging is hard! I don't know how people do it. Haven't see the vids but I was out for more than 3mins before getting out and I did it right, I'm certain. I guess we all have differing resilience levels.

The white stuff you see when cutting deep like that is probably fat. Subcutaneous fat. It can be a bit yellow too. Our skin ia a lot more pail the deeper you go too. Then there's nerves which are also white but possibly not all nerves. If you've gone deep and wide with those scalpel cuts you may find they wont heal without stitches I'm afraid. You should really go to A&E to get it checked out. I guess you could tell them you had an accident with an improvised craft tool or something. Probably not a great idea to say you stabbed yourself.

Regarding the blood drawing. The syringe you have there appear to be a 2ml syringe. If that's what you used and you filled it 30 times you actually probably pulled 60ml. I was unaware of 100ml blood letting cauaing you to pass out. Are you certain of that?

Wait, you have chauffeur? In a 3rd world country.

 

[Alex6216]

What is GHB? I have xanax

Sorry for answering so late. GHB is an illegal drug that's stereotypically used for date r*pe, it's also used to get high. You can kill yourself with it and it's as painless as N, I have a link to someone explaining how to kill yourself with GHB on my profile