How people will think of you afterward

[leloyon]

I've been thinking for maybe an hour now. I wonder, how people will see me when I'm gone. How many will hear of it? What will they think? Old friends, family members, people I know online… I wonder how they'll react.
I guess this is a topic for us to ponder that. How do you feel they'll react to you? Why? Are you worried about how they'll react? Anything to do with what the people who know you may feel about your exit.

 

[Zelda-frog]

I'm worried about how my boyfriend will react because he said he'd do it right after me when we've talked about it. I don't want his life ending just because mine is even though I guess that's his choice. I'm also worried about my family because we all have our own mental health issues and I'm wondering how they are going to deal with it. I don't think my friend will find out honestly and I hope she doesn't because we haven't talked in a little bit and she is doing good in life. I feel like distant family would be sad but they'd expect it. They know I am messed up lol.

I just hope they don't care for too long honestly. I don't want to be remembered really.

 

[spøgelse]

I doubt they'll think anything of me. Probably "good riddance" at most. My name will be run into the ground and I'll be misgendered to hell and back whenever I'm brought up.
I don't give a shit about what they think. Not my bloody problem at that point. The only thing I'm worried about is somebody finding my corpse. I don't want a burial. Ideally my corpse will never be found.
I don't have many friends. I've purposefully socially isolated myself for years for that reason, along with people treating me like I'm the spawn of the devil.
My goal is to CTB a month after my birthday next year if things don't get any better, and I doubt any of this will change by then.

 

[Fktw0rld]

Nothing really. They'll all be living their daily lives as usual. You may be the topic of a convo for a few minutes but then they'll get a text or make some food, play a video game, flip through pornhub or whatever. No one really cares. If they did we wouldn't be here with random strangers looking for support.

 

[Linda]

I've been thinking for maybe an hour now. I wonder, how people will see me when I'm gone. How many will hear of it? What will they think? Old friends, family members, people I know online… I wonder how they'll react.
I guess this is a topic for us to ponder that. How do you feel they'll react to you? Why? Are you worried about how they'll react? Anything to do with what the people who know you may feel about your exit.

Does it matter? By then you will neither know nor care what they think. You will have no concerns about anything.

 

[Valky]

Does it matter? By then you will neither know nor care what they think. You will have no concerns about anything.

I mean it does, if you care about these people. It is something extremely upsetting to think about so I also understand why some people decide to just not reason with themselves.

 

[Linda]

I mean it does, if you care about these people. It is something extremely upsetting to think about so I also understand why some people decide to just not reason with themselves.

I agree, but that didn't seem to be quite what OP was asking about.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't care about whatever happens in this horrible world after I'm gone, no matter what it could never be my concern. Death would erase everything for me and this awful existence won't even exist as a distant memory, it will all be forgotten about. And anyway we all have to die someday, in comparison to the vast eternity of nonexistence, our existences are so impermanent and insignifcant. Eventually we very likely won't even exist in the memories of those who continue to stay here and that is the reality. For most people it will eventually be like they never existed at all.

 

[Jezzibell]

I don't think anything. What family I have left know I want to ctb and don't care. Work colleagues will be shocked and say they had no idea. I know noone where I live and noone will notice my passing

 

[Not.Flugel]

I sadly have two friends that will probably ctb, if I do it. Don't want that to happen so stuck in this limbo until I push them far enough away to avoid that outcome.

 

[Idos]

Why youre even worried? you will be dead anyway

 

[miserabletires9]

unless it's your close close friends and your immediate family, ppl would think "oh how sad" and move on with their lives

 

[WorthlessTrash]

It will likely affect my family big time, including my sister and mom. Some friends may be sad for a little, but life goes on. Oh well.

 

[unnormal9]

Don't give a shit what other think now before or afterwards. I'm trying to end this shit.

 

[scamper]

I have some close friends and family members that would be upset by my death even if I let them know that it's the best option for me. I think those rational enough to understand my reasoning — which i would let everyone know before I go — are going to be able to take it pretty well. For those that won't handle it quite as well, I'm sure they'll realize in time that they're going to be better off.

 

[loopdaloop]

Parents will feel relief because of all the strain and stress that I've caused them after failed attempts, others won't be surprised either. Maybe just relief.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I honestly couldn't care less how others might view me after I'm gone. I guess it really doesn't affect me, in reality, because I have nobody at all - no family or friends - but even if I did, I still wouldn't give a shit. I'm gone - why would I care?

 

[thecolourgold]

The person closest in my life right now to me is going to feel deep, intense anger at me. I imagine them pounding their firsts on my body. But then I see them feeling relief, freeing themselves from the burden of me being in their life.

 

[CentreMid]

I'm not overly concerned about it tbh, I'll be dead. That being said, it may surprise some people, mainly because I've acting fine this whole time, so they won't see it coming. But other than the initial shock, I'm not too bothered what what others will think.

 

[StolenLife]

Tbh they won't be suprised, I've had a few mental breakdowns way back in high school and everyone knew I was hypersensitive. They'll probably think that "the looney bitch finally did it" or something among those lines.

 

[leloyon]

Does it matter? By then you will neither know nor care what they think. You will have no concerns about anything.

Not really, however it is just something I was thinking about and felt I had to put out there. And perhaps maybe someone else wanted to discuss this sort of thing so why not make a thread about it?

 

[AerialBoundaries]

They've been deeply concerned about me for a long time, so it won't come as a great surprise.

I actually don't want to leave when everything is shit like this. I want to do something good and make positive changes before I go. That way, I'll feel like I can go on my own terms. I don't want to go out as the ultimate loser.

Everyone would probably feel like I was doing it to be vindictive, if things played out that way.

 

[outrider567]

My stepmother will be upset for awhile, then she'll get over it--My brother died 6 months ago, she knew him 45 years, never mentions him much---My two nieces and nephew, whom I saw April 7th at my brothers funeral, will be sad for a little while, then they'll go back to their busy lives, I'll be just an afterthought

 

[leavingsoon99]

Meh. I'll be dead. And one day, so will they. So, I don't care about existing in the memories of finite creatures.

 

[NoLoveNoHope]

My family and my friends here would be the only ones who'd actually be sad. My friends outside of the site don't talk to me anyways.

My ex will be over the moon at the news and her friends will probably share the happiness.

I don't really care what happens after my death apart from who finds my body and who can gather more information about me.

 

[unnormal9]

And one day, so will they.

Hopefully sooner too.

 

[Arachno]

People around me will probably be really shocked, since literally no one around me knows that I'm suicidal, but I don't really care what will they think, even if I came back a ghost or some crap, I wouldn't care much.