How often do you think about suicide?

[ImSorryEmma]

I dunno. At this point I lost track

 

[vulturecyclop]

Every single day.

 

[Élégie]

Every day.

 

[erehbus]

I also think about it every single day (except when I am in hipomania, but this has not happened since I started taking mood stabilizers). However, it is not always the same.

There are days the thought is there, but I know I won't actually do it, and there are days that all I want is to die. Suicide Ideation has been my companion for the last 12 years, but not always that translated to actually wanting to end it all in the spot instead of just planning or hoping.

 

[Fragile]

i haven't had a day in over 10 years without the constant thought of suicide.

only drugs help, but even then i'm still thinking about it, only in a "happier" and accepting way, as if i had made peace with the idea. then i wake up sober and feel the exact opposite, frustration and sadnes overwhelm me.

 

[GreyClouds]

Most of the day, really.

 

[TheNorthernSilence]

It's a daily thing now for me.

 

[Nem]

SUICIDE!!!!!!!'
I would say quite often
Peace/hugs

 

[Dannyboy]

Alot, 5 times a day atleast. it varies alot, but it`s always there.

 

[Hotsackage]

Alall the time but i have no way to do it

 

[truthseeker]

Daily and often the last couple of years.

 

[woxihuanni]

It's always on my mind, the awareness that I may have to go any day. It's like my entire life is spent in a literal bus station, or airport, clutching a ticket, fearing every announcement.

 

[iF3arD3atH]

Without my weed it is a constant struggle with thoughts. I smoke so I can distract myself. But in the last couple days I've had none and have been pacing and emotional at all times, not sleeping and really starting to solidify my plans as I see no way out except by my own hand.

tl;dr
suicidal thoughts w weed = a few times a day.
Suicidal thoughts w/o weed = constant

 

[lostangel]

Many times during the day. Almost constant. I am obsessed with taking my own life.

 

[Le_lacrime_di_marzo]

Every day all day!

 

[neilo99]

Seems to be my 1st thought when I wake up each day

 

[hatelife]

Daily, and most of the time when i get alone

yeah I dont want to end up alone either, ppl have failed me, ive failed them too

Seems to be my 1st thought when I wake up each day

usually my last thought before going to bed

 

[cookiedough]

Constantly. All day. Every day. I attempt partial suspension nearly every night. But I fail because I can't take the pain and I've failed to hit the spot that makes me pass out. I almost blacked out once but my reflexes kicked in and I pushed myself upright. I'll just keep trying until I succeed I guess. I don't have access to any of the chemicals that could kill you. They are so hard to get a hold of in the US. There are no really tall buildings where I live. I just want death everyday, but I've found no successful way out.

 

[misos9]

every day, whenever i am alone.

 

[AlePizarnik]

Several times a day, every couple of hours

 

[kerokeroka]

everyday at this point, its getting to a point where im starting to visualize holding an actual rifle to my head and firing when in the past this would have scared me.