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sleeps

sleeps

being a thing
Oct 12, 2022
69
its always in the back of my mind, if not the forefront. lots of reminders lately that i have no choice but to ctb fairly soon
 
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justwanasleep

justwanasleep

Student
Nov 8, 2022
100
All the bloody time. All I've been thinking is Peru Peru Peru! I've got it in my head that it's some utopia where I'll die. I spend a lot of time fantasising about going into the rainforest with my tent and a few supplies and letting something poisonous bite me and me suffer for a while but love that it's nearly the end.
Even though I know I'm going to die in the uk all I can think about is Peru. I think it's because I haven't decided on the method I want to use, I think when I do that I'll be able to relax a bit.
 
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butterfly3

butterfly3

Student
Apr 2, 2022
119
at least several hrs a day. even on the better days I still am thinking about
 
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y0dha

y0dha

Student
Feb 10, 2022
104
vary between minutely or hourly I'd say.
Sometimes i have this thought of "I don't wanna die please help me" but I know I will never get better so since my situation is doomed most of the time I want to kill myself.
I just wish someone cull pull the trigger for me it'd be easier...
 
Ravel

Ravel

tired
Dec 13, 2021
144
24/7 the non-existence its the only thing that brings me peace
 
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harshbarger

Member
Dec 21, 2021
12
In a "good" period maybe only a few times a week. In a "bad" period, several times a day.
 
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onlyway63

Member
Nov 5, 2022
19
Many times per day, evry day.
 
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Pentobarbital_Plz

Pentobarbital_Plz

STOP HAVING KIDS!!!
Oct 28, 2022
275
It never stops…..just like this DAMN HEART >:-((((
 
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help56

Student
Oct 4, 2022
121
Everyday I want to die . I am looking for SN but I am told the whole thing is selfish
 
wanttodie

wanttodie

Enlightened
Apr 19, 2018
1,827
24/7
 
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Need2BFree

Member
Oct 5, 2022
41
Every single second the urge is so strong.
 
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flightless bird

flightless bird

somewhere over the rainbow
Aug 18, 2022
295
It has become my base consciousness.
 
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Dark Moon

Dark Moon

Elementalist
Sep 21, 2022
824
Once a day usually for me sometimes more.
 
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bigtiredoflife

Member
Aug 4, 2021
30
All the time lately. I feel like a burden on my one friend. My family doesn't really care about me. I'm just a joke of a man but still get skittish about pulling the trigger. I wish I had a pill that made me fall asleep and die peacefully. Stupid human instincts, making me scared to die
 
Sapphire

Sapphire

Student
Nov 22, 2022
185
It has gotten to the point where I have suicidal thoughts 24/7. No matter what I am doing or where I am, they are always there. The only time I don't have them is when I'm sleeping.
 
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Sad_Sack

Experienced
Oct 3, 2022
261
It's non stop for me. My symptoms are relentless and they never let me forget that I wish to be healed or dead.
 
WorthlessTrash

WorthlessTrash

Worthless
Apr 19, 2022
2,430
It and dysphoria consume my mind as long as I am awake. It's a clear sign to CTB so I can escape this hell.
 
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