Discussion How often do you lie?

[needwaytohell]

Everytime. Literally no one knows I'm making the decision of ending myself. Any relatives/friends who ask me how I am I just say I'm doing well (externally everything seems to be well no shady signs). However things weren't always like this when I encountered depression in high school I had been upfront straight up started throwing. I noticed everyone basically ignoring me even to those ones who I deeply cared and helped. It only got worse after that once I entered uni I ensured I took no ones assistance and solo carried almost all the time and helped others as well when I could but humans are sick and yet again I am betrayed . I realised I'd stay in dark and leave this world without any warning. I want to live behind something significant if I can but whatever. My mental state is so bad I essentially play a dual character inside I'm broken outside I act like a clean mirror showcasing perfectness and dedication.