How much time do you want between the moment you decide to CTB and the moment of your death?

[Wait-Bus]

I am not really interested in spending a lot of time thnking about CTB.

Most of my life, I have always thought that my life would end with suicide. But it has always been in the background that "sometme" in the future it will happen.

Lately, I have been hearing "soon" in my head. There is no date in mind just an idea.

What would be ideal is that I hear "now", and if I am in my chosen place - a hotel for business, I would put up my doorway pushup device i always have with me, tie the rope as I have always practised, write a suicide note, put my head through the noose, adjust it for the sweet spot, walk off, pass out - and then die.

I have this idea, that once the word "now" hits my thoughts - I would prefer to be dead less than an hour later.

So I don't worry about it, it will happen. And the shorter the period I have to think about the act, the more I can focus on just doing it and less time worrying about it.

 

[FuneralCry]

At this point, I've had more than enough time to think about ctb. I've honestly never wanted to live and I've been suicidal since I was very young. I'm tired of thinking about wanting to die and thinking about methods. I know that ctb makes so much sense for me and I love the sound of eternal sleep only it's just not straightforward to get there.
In an ideal world I would have left a long time ago, but even better never exist at all.

 

[Hope:-)]

Just enough for me to plan sufficiently but not so much to overthink. I think I have that balance now, but who knows whether I will go through with it. Let's hope so.

 

[DeadManLiving]

There is no correct timetable. Every situation is unique. It's important to leave enough time to do enough soul-searching, exploring last ditch efforts with the few resources and energy you have left to see if it makes sense to reverse course, and enough time to plan to ensure that this is the correct decision for you in the grand scheme of things and not a crass decision that is merely a knee-jerk impulsive reaction to an immediate stressor.

Generally a rule of thumb would be one two three years. CBT should not be impulsive reaction, but the culmination of a very well thought out and calculated decision that was made rationally, in the totality of circumstances. Weighing the pros and cons of continuing to endure, it must be the only reasonable action in escape a truly impossible situation.

As a rule of thumb, the more time, the better. But of course, not unduly or unreasonably delayed so as to prolong your suffering without some justifiable cause.

It is not a decision to be taken lightly, or in light of temporary circumstances which could be foreseeably and reasonably resolved. Suicide is a permanent solution to a permanent problem, or at least a permanent solution to far exceeding a point of no return.

Feel free to DM me if you want to vent, get something off your mind or just talk. You should definitely reach to people that can understand your situation without sugar coating it, and possibly provide new and fresh perspectives on your situation which can help you to work through the emotional and logical decision making process.

 

[HerculePoirot]

Depends on the method (not decided yet).

So it's purely a technical issue. Could be one minute. Or one week. More probably a couple of hours.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

As quickly as possible, hopefully. I want to be unconscious within seconds, and die within minutes thereafter. My method is going to be high levels of CO in a tent.

 

[Lost Magic]

With my method (N) I should be out pretty quickly. I was very fortunate enough to acquire it, which is ironic because I have led a very unfortunate life. Oh, well. At least I, finally, won something big.

 

[MuteIsland]

As little as possible. Ideally I'd have a gun on me and the second I realize I fully want to die I'd just do it. I've only suffered so long because of fear and overthinking so just being able to do it quickly is priority. I'd maybe take a few minutes to message my friends my prewritten note though.

 

[outrider567]

When I decide that its the right time, I want to be unconscious in minutes and dead within the hour

 

[Cerulea]

When I decide that its the right time, I want to be unconscious in minutes and dead within the hour

I agree with this. When I know it's the right time, I'm not interested in having an experience that gets dragged out. I would like to be gone quickly.

 

[Sapphire]

When I decide that its the right time, I want to be unconscious in minutes and dead within the hour

This exactly. I already had enough of time to think about it and plan sufficiently. I've learned from my past mistakes. When the time is right, I want to be gone as quickly as possible. I don't want to overthink it and give time for fear to kick in.