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theangelswept

theangelswept

sorry sorry sorry
Feb 27, 2024
13
Have you set a date for yourself? How much time do you have left? Why did you choose that date? What time of day or night are you going to ctb?
 
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ma0

ma0

How did I get here?
Dec 20, 2024
298
Some point in the next 2 years, I'd say. Not narrowed down anything specific yet.
 
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NitrogenAfternoon

NitrogenAfternoon

Member
Jan 20, 2025
21
Few months at most, sometime around after March, no later than June. I will not be living this summer out, that's for sure.
 
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human909

human909

I just want peace
Dec 30, 2024
428
Well, my next attempt will be in april or may haven't decided which month.
 
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montanatype

montanatype

Member
Nov 7, 2024
6
I had planned to live until at least 2027, I got my SN on november and the idea doesn't stop persisting, so, I guess a few months
 
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DoneWithThisLife

DoneWithThisLife

Betrayed and Broken
Apr 30, 2024
63
23 days. That's my sister's birthday and she is the person who has killed me. Not sure what time. gotta wait till hubby takes dog for a walk & I can slip out without him noticing.
 
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drag201

drag201

Member
Oct 15, 2023
76
Sometime in the next two years i hope
 
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idelttoilfsadness21

I need a moment right now
Jan 6, 2025
644
This year or it'll get emotionally and mentally worse from here and I can't endure anymore…. I just can't!!
 
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loneloser

loneloser

i wanna sleep 4ever <3
Jan 16, 2025
69
I chose my birthday which is the 17th of February. Or before it. I really hope I go through with it, I can't stand being a year older and being alive. Everything just gets worse, nothing gets better.
 
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femcelloser

femcelloser

Transgender thing
Jan 18, 2025
26
I don't have an exact date picked but I really don't see myself having another year in me
 
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ThatStateOfMind

Enlightened
Nov 13, 2021
1,376
I haven't set a date so I honestly have no clue. I tend to try my best to avoid impulse attempts simply as they have a higher risk of failing.
 
Anhaedra

Anhaedra

Account Disabled
May 5, 2024
94
I have until the 7th of May to find out if life is worth living or not
 
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divinemistress36

divinemistress36

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2024
3,638
I would say in a year but i said that last year and here I still am
 
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Ashes of a Dreamer

Ashes of a Dreamer

Looking for freedom out of this hell
Dec 29, 2024
35
15th, July, my birthday. But I don't think I'll bear until there, so probably going to CTB in a few months. I decided to die at home, period of night. Btw, accepting suggestions on how to CTB this day, as the only method I can achieve is SN, and want to think about a plan B.
 
Boots2Scoots

Boots2Scoots

Piece of dirt
Jan 23, 2025
40
2-4 days. All depends on how I feel. It's coming though
 
JesiBel

JesiBel

Harpy
Dec 5, 2024
89
I would say in a year but i said that last year and here I still am
There is no rush, it is better to be super determined before trying.

I prefer not to set dates or time limits or my anxiety becomes worse.

Hugs to everyone.
 
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nomoredolor

nomoredolor

Specialist
Sep 7, 2024
304
Have you set a date for yourself? How much time do you have left? Why did you choose that date? What time of day or night are you going to ctb?
I keep waffling back and forth. I was thinking November so that a couple of events could happen before I Ctb. But the volatile political climate in the USA may affect the timing. And now I find out I have to find a new place to live by the first of April. Which gives me time to plan but I honestly might just Ctb before then. Idk. I want to Ctb sooner than later and I keep putting it off for my loved ones. I'm wracked with guilt for what I am going to do to them. I wish very much for god to just put me out of my misery so I don't have to be the one to do it.

I will be Ctb mid morning. That way I would've already fasted the night before. I'll send my usual morning messages and I'll let ppl know that I am going to be out of town with no cell service for a couple days. I'll actually be home tho. I'll take care of any last minute preparations and I'll get the SN protocol ready. Then I'll look at photos of my best friend and think about him while I die. I might put a soundtrack on repeat I'm not sure yet.

I'll make sure there is a note on the inner door advising the person entering to call the police and not come in any further.

I'm looking forward to not having to hurt anymore.

Anna
 
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BlueButterfly111

BlueButterfly111

Autistic and Heartbroken
Dec 26, 2024
75
I hope to ctb by next month or sooner. But that all depends on how the plan goes!
 
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_Maya

_Maya

Suicider.
Jan 26, 2025
21
a couple years at most, the only thing stopping me from doing ctb is my grandpa who is the only person to genuinely love me. if everything becomes too unbearable i might attempt earlier.
 
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noidea1984

Member
Jan 14, 2025
52
Have you set a date for yourself? How much time do you have left? Why did you choose that date? What time of day or night are you going to ctb?
Aiming for 2 weeks, MAYBE next Tuesday. Under my circumstances, gotta go fast. The plan has been in works for months though, it just took this long for me to find a relatively peaceful and ludicrously fast method
 
NegevChina

NegevChina

I've done the best I could
Sep 5, 2024
366
Aiming for 2 weeks, MAYBE next Tuesday. Under my circumstances, gotta go fast. The plan has been in works for months though, it just took this long for me to find a relatively peaceful and ludicrously fast method
I'm aiming for few days, but no more than 2 weeks. Is it ok to ask what method your planing?
 
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catchthebussoonuk

Member
Jan 23, 2025
13
I will by the end of Feb. I am looking for a partner if possible which I know is a long shot but it would be nice to support someone else at the same time and nit to be alone.
 
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noidea1984

Member
Jan 14, 2025
52
I'm aiming for few days, but no more than 2 weeks. Is it ok to ask what method your planning?
Basically an "exit bin" with CO as an alternative to an exit bag. I have a post up explaining how it will work
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
40,074
I wish I have the option to just painlessly free myself from this existence and never suffer ever again but of course I'm so cruelly denied that with suffering seen as to force and prolong instead, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing in peace, all I wish for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep free from all suffering where finally all is forgotten about for me. Nothing no matter what would make me wish to suffer in this existence that always felt like a mistake to me, I just want nothingness instead, I just find it so painful and dreadful how the option for me to cease existing painlessly with no risks of trying to die going wrong is denied for me even know this torturous, futile existence was imposed in the first place, I'd never wish for any time spent suffering in this existence, to me existence really is an abomination, I suffer just from being conscious in this existence.
 
Miss_Anthropy

Miss_Anthropy

New Member
Jan 22, 2025
3
Before I'm 30, for sure. But I probably won't make it more than a year or two.
 
WeDontKnowTheFuture

WeDontKnowTheFuture

Student
Feb 3, 2023
174
normally, A few months if nothing change, i do not really want to do it but what life propose me for the following is purely torture.
 
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LeavingThisHell

Member
Jan 27, 2025
25
I prefer not to set dates or time limits or my anxiety becomes worse.
I tried that but my mind is too systematical and I always end up finding an ideal date to do it. Now it's getting closer to this day and some anxiety is already starting to come to surface (although I try to suppress it). I just hope I can behave "normally" around others as things will probably keep escalating from here on.

OP question: Basically it will be in a few weeks, I chose a day that's distant from all my loved ones' birthdays so that they won't have a sad birthday because of me.
 
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