how much is your fear of not existing from 0 to 10?

[Tintypographer]

Good heavens! I'd give almost anything to not exist! Just to fade away blissfulky with no one remembering me and me not remembering anyone. No requests for anything, and no disappointing anyone ever again! Such peace!

 

[Mentalmick]

Sometimes 0 sometimes 10. Spend most of my time in between to be honest.

 

[shadowchaser]

I honestly can't clearly remember a time when it hasn't been 0.

 

[Deleted member 94]

The way I look at it is that whatever follows happened to my granny, my mom all the others who have passed on. So I'll just be another. This relieves all my fears. I'll be joining them in their passing and my passing will be the same as theirs. So no fears in total.

 

[Midnight-rain]

For too long it was maybe a 8 or 9 despite being suicidal. It's a permanent change and even if I wanted it, change is mortifying. I also dealt with the classic fear of what comes next i.e afraid of going to hell. Nowadays it's a flat zero. My desire overrides any remaining anxiety.

 

[sihaam]

2/10. The thought of my body being decomposed by maggots is unsettling Thats why I want to be cremated. Also probably the pain I may inflict on my family. Otherwise I feel this urgency to end things, I'm eager/ excited to find out what happens or does not happen.

 

[Deformationalplagio]

Im honestly scared of both living and being dead. Life is a curse for me

 

[justanotherstar]

I don't have a fear of ceasing to exist in terms of my own feelings but I fear for those who have had the displeasure of learning to love me so I guess about a 2/3. I mostly think people would be better off without me as I'm a burden/drain but the person I am madly in love with wouldn't be better off in any without me, but such is life we can't live happily ever after.

I also don't think I'm scared of dying itself, it is comforting... inviting but I am scared of fucking it up

 

[WrongGuy47]

0

 

[Raminiki]

Zero. It's what I want and hope for more than anything. If death is the ultimate mercy, we're all saved from immortal suffering.

I'm still here because of two things; survival instinct and existential fear that I won't stop existing and might be forced to live it all again if I ctb to get out early. Both are irrational reasons for living.

 

[neitherherenorthere]

I'm fine with the idea of being dead/not existing. It's the transitional stage that gets me, but it fluctuates.. The more suicidal I feel the lower the number is.

 

[stygal]

0 ... for me the fear of being trapped in this decaying meat-suit for another 50 plus years is waaay stronger.
I actually long to be non-existent.

 

[Weightoftheworld]

Probably in the negatives. I'd go right diggity now into nonexistence.
Same in the aspect in fear of dying, I'm not scared to die.

 

[Starseedchip]

Fear of not existing is zero. I do fear the transition though. Those last moments knowing what's about to happen give me anxiety.

 

[epic]

9

 

[mimiopo22]

can I ask you what led you to answer 0? I too have exceeded the limit for a long time but I am still very afraid

 

[mimiopo22]

Santo cielo! Darei quasi tutto per non esistere! Solo per svanire beati senza che nessuno si ricordi di me e io che non ricordo nessuno. Nessuna richiesta di nulla e nessuno deluso mai più! Che pace!

i feel you

 

[Hurt]

0. I wasn't afraid before being born so..

 

[Antigonish]

-100

 

[Daveyjones]

0. Can't remember a time when I wanted to exist. I've always felt like a ghost, more so lately than ever. It's insane how you can have family, a significant other, and friends yet none of them seem to care about you and make you feel even more so like a ghost.

 

[IWantToSleep]

Maybe 1 or 2, out of the thought that my perception of my situation is entirely wrong and I could have an amazing life, but other than that I don't have any fear because I'm not losing anything as I don't enjoy anything in life at the moment.

 

[Pookie]

Zero. Death would be my biggest dream come true, the perfect birthday present.

 

[KleinerWolf]

Fear for non-existence during the process of dying:
5/10.

but I'll make peace with it by galancing how futile my life was,
and I'll be listening to piano/french music to calm myself.

 

[BehindTheWall]

I'd say 1. Only because I think about the pain of my family. Otherwise, zero.

 

[Adamsnolife]

0. The sooner death is upon me the better. Life is not life if you cannot enjoy it

 

[Initiated]

Absolutely 0.
Not existing is precisely what I want.

 

[Amumu]

Same 0. I understand the fear of dying, but the concept of non-existence seems amazing.