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TheHatedOne

TheHatedOne

Death is salvation
Sep 26, 2021
2,028
Man I'd give anything to have someone that would be comforting to me again. To have someone feel empathy and compassion towards me and not see me as something worse than a monster. Someone to listen to me, just like in DM's song Personal Jesus: ''Someone to hear your prayers/ Someone who cares''. Someone who wouldn't belittle me and treat me harshly. I'd love to feel genuineness and warmth and hear stories. I'd love to be hugged again but I know for sure that won't happen ever again.

And I remember I used to have such things from amazing persons in the past but I was a fool. And then after I reflect on my past I tell to myself: ''yeah, life can only get worse indeed.''
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
42,615
Your feelings are understandable. But the sad reality is that people are disappointing, they can betray you and cause you lots of pain. That is why I see it as better to stay away from others.
 
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A_miStake_of_NATURE

I wish no one had to CTB..........
Aug 14, 2020
703
Man I'd give anything to have someone that would be comforting to me again. To have someone feel empathy and compassion towards me and not see me as something worse than a monster. Someone to listen to me, just like in DM's song Personal Jesus: ''Someone to hear your prayers/ Someone who cares''. Someone who wouldn't belittle me and treat me harshly. I'd love to feel genuineness and warmth and hear stories. I'd love to be hugged again but I know for sure that won't happen ever again.

And I remember I used to have such things from amazing persons in the past but I was a fool. And then after I reflect on my past I tell to myself: ''yeah, life can only get worse indeed.''
You can still meet wonderful people. You can still feel loved and cared for. It's very hard and sometimes it seems impossible, but it happens. And I wish it would happen to you very, very soon!!! :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart: :heart:
 
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Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,479
You've got to show me love
Heartbreaks and promises
I've had more than my share
I'm tired of giving my love
And getting nowhere, nowhere
What I need is somebody
Who really cares
I really need a lover
A lover that wants to be there
It's been so long since I
Touched a wanting hand
I can't put my love on the line
That I hope you'll understand
So, baby if you want me
You've got to show me love
Words are so easy to say, alright?
You've got to show me love

 

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Jblack

Jblack

Specialist
Oct 8, 2018
314
I understand how you feel. Most of the time I wish I was someone else, often wondering what I could have changed about myself to be different. Sometimes even daydreaming about what life would be like if I were someone else.
 
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demuic

demuic

Life was a mistake
Sep 12, 2020
1,383
Your feelings are understandable. But the sad reality is that people are disappointing, they can betray you and cause you lots of pain. That is why I see it as better to stay away from others.
That is also how I feel.

I have accepted being alone because it will also make it easier to ctb with less people to potentially be affected.
 
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Beau

Beau

Student
Aug 30, 2021
100
Man I'd give anything to have someone that would be comforting to me again. To have someone feel empathy and compassion towards me and not see me as something worse than a monster. Someone to listen to me, just like in DM's song Personal Jesus: ''Someone to hear your prayers/ Someone who cares''. Someone who wouldn't belittle me and treat me harshly. I'd love to feel genuineness and warmth and hear stories. I'd love to be hugged again but I know for sure that won't happen ever again.

Relationships can be very hard, but why do you think that you can never have these things again?
 
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TheHatedOne

TheHatedOne

Death is salvation
Sep 26, 2021
2,028
Relationships can be very hard, but why do you think that you can never have these things again?
Life, the fact that I'm hated or ignored everywhere I go...
 
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Beau

Beau

Student
Aug 30, 2021
100
Life, the fact that I'm hated or ignored everywhere I go...
I am sorry that people have treated you like that.
And I remember I used to have such things from amazing persons in the past but I was a fool. And then after I reflect on my past I tell to myself: ''yeah, life can only get worse indeed.''
If you once had special people in your life, maybe there is a possibility you could find a way to make that happen again. Even a "fool", if that term applies to you, can learn and grow from past mistakes.
 
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TheHatedOne

Death is salvation
Sep 26, 2021
2,028
I am sorry that people have treated you like that.

If you once had special people in your life, maybe there is a possibility you could find a way to make that happen again. Even a "fool", if that term applies to you, can learn and grow from past mistakes.
I don't find it really possible, those were probably once in a lifetime chances.
 
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Beau

Beau

Student
Aug 30, 2021
100
Yes, sometimes things only happen once in a lifetime, but I think when it comes to relationships it's a pretty rare thing.

From what I have experienced, the best relationships (romantic or not) happen when I'm not looking for one. They come about out of a shared experience - being on, the same softball team, the same bike club, the same church group. And even if nothing clicks, there can be joy in just doing something. Because of my physical illness, I can't do these things anymore, but I would give anything to be able to again.
 

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