Discussion How many want to ctb this year

[Lost Magic]

Yes. I would really like to go this soon, but I have to setup a charitable will and tie up a few loose ends. I couldn't do another full year though. I really struggled to get through the long summer. But if I can get out before the end of the year, even better.

 

[Adamsnolife]

Yes definitely

 

[Ankou]

If I cbt this year I hope to do it on my Dad's birthday. Yeah it's fucked up but I don't care. He ruined my life so I'll ruin the narcissist's favourite day

 

[xLosthopex]

Me
Although I think I said the same thing this time last year lol
But definitely before my next birthday which is in March, the thought of being any older than my current age is unbearable, I refuse to get any older and if I were to reach my next birthday I'll no longer be able to say I'm in my "early 20s"

 

[Adamsnolife]

Me
Although I think I said the same thing this time last year lol
But definitely before my next birthday which is in March, the thought of being any older than my current age is unbearable, I refuse to get any older and if I were to reach my next birthday I'll no longer be able to say I'm in my "early 20s"

I wanted to ctb mid twenties. 34 at the end of the week.

 

[xLosthopex]

I wanted to ctb mid twenties. 34 at the end of the week.

Oh, an early happy(?) birthday to you then I personally hate my birthdays but I hope you manage to have an ok day or do something that brings you some joy

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

People always say that things'll get better but I've suffered a lot throughout my entire life.

Yes! "Hold on!" they say. But you're the one left with the rope burns on your palms. :(

There is no reason for me to stay alive. If it was easier I would have already been gone. The survival instinct and the fear of failure holds me back.

Exaaaaactly.

If I cbt this year I hope to do it on my Dad's birthday. Yeah it's fucked up but I don't care. He ruined my life so I'll ruin the narcissist's favourite day

You know, you give me the idea of going on either my mom's birthday or deathday. We had a very weird relationship, but it's the only authentic relationship I've ever had. I'm sorry your relationship with your dad was so painful. Isn't it confounding how easy it is for people who aren't ready to or shouldn't become parents TO BECOME parents anyway? A hug to you--and thanks for the idea, again.

 

[Charkie]

Looking like Dec 24th for me, SN or gun.

 

[Ghostgirl]

Hopefully once sn comes for me

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Looking like Dec 24th for me

Any reason for this date?

 

[ihatemylife]

Failing is what scares me. I'm not afraid of dying. But failing an attempt would make things worse. Although my life is already a nightmare. Everyday is torturing.

Same

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

I want to go this year but cant because I dont want to leave my dog behind.

That's so very kind of you. Thank you for that.

I'm thinking about this year. Hope I'll follow through with my SN. I'm scared of getting anxious and I don't have any meds for that…..

 

[EndlessDolphin]

I don't see anything getting better for me. I still don't have any friends so I'm still incredibly lonely to the point where it physically hurts me to see two people interacting with each other like friends. Recently I had my wisdom teeth removed and I was given 600mg of Ibuprofen and some hydrocodne so I might can do something with that and go peacefully.

 

[Adamsnolife]

Oh, an early happy(?) birthday to you then I personally hate my birthdays but I hope you manage to have an ok day or do something that brings you some joy

Thanks. I hate them also. It's another year older that you'd want to be and never thought I get to 34

 

[Charkie]

Any reason for this date?

That's the longest I am willing to wait for my ex to decide to reconnect. Half the year is dragging by waiting for a decision if I can come back. Missing Thanksgiving with ex and family will push me over the edge and that's when I'll start gathering the equipment I will need to CTB. Christmas Eve will be the day at that point and can't wait for her to hear the news that I've left this mortal coil. There's still hope though at this point but very small probability, it's enough hope to keep me breathing and working still towards the end of the year.

 

[BobMorane]

Halloween looks like a good day de ctb ... Going with Sn or N if I get it .

 

[PDAnnie2610]

Planned for it in a few months after work is done for the year. I can't wait, though part of me wishes that I can be salvaged though I'm beginning to recognise what a lost cause I am. Haha.

 

[wait-for-the-bus]

2022 death by full suspended hanging

 

[ARW3N]

I would very much like to end my life this year. The problem is finding the courage to do so.