Discussion How many times have you been in love?

[alexithymia]

If you ever have been.

 

[CFLoser]

1, wbu??

 

[Stan]

3

 

[Squiddy]

0

 

[Lethe]

Never, those sort of feelings piss me off so I distance myself if I ever feel myself becoming infatuated with someone (which rarely happens).

 

[alexithymia]

1, wbu??

I don't even know if what I experienced was love. More accurately infatuation/dependence.

 

[BangBangBang]

0

 

[Oblivion Lover]

I seem to be unable to truly love other people, but one time I had a sort-of crush on a guy when I was in school. It only made me embarass myself as I struggled to get his attention and make him like me while knowing nothing would ever happen between us. Eventually things got awkward and I stopped talking to him. Well, he was too good for me anyway. I just wish that never happened.

 

[Sargasm]

Once, still am.

I don't count my first marriage. I was young and naive, and she was a lying manipulative control freak that dragged me down into her redneck nightmare. I missed every red flag that slapped me in the face.

But then I escaped, and met my soulmate. We were going to get married. I broke up with her three years ago during my second mental breakdown, and I stayed away from her because I knew I was going to kill myself, and I didn't want to hurt her any more than I already have. She has since fallen in love with someone else, got married, and moved to another country, living a blissfully happy life.

I try to be happy for her, try to tell myself that I did the right and noble thing by setting her free for a better life with someone who isn't severely mentally ill, but the truth is that it fucking kills me every second of every day.

 

[alexithymia]

Once, still am. I don't count my first marriage.

We were going to get married. I broke up with her three years ago during my second mental breakdown, and I stayed away from her because I knew I was going to kill myself, and I didn't want to hurt her any more than I already have. She has since fallen in love with someone else, got married, and moved to another country, living a blissfully happy life.

I try to be happy for her, try to tell myself that I did the right and noble thing by setting her free for a better life with someone who isn't severely mentally ill, but the truth is that it fucking kills me every second of every day.

This post is heartbreakingly beautiful. What you did for her is truly noble—a sign of selfless, unconditional love.

Please remember that you deserve love and peace yourself. You are a wonderful, compassionate soul.

 

[Sadwind]

2 great loves

 

[Sargasm]

This post is heartbreakingly beautiful. What you did for her is truly noble—a sign of selfless, unconditional love.

Please remember that you deserve love and peace yourself. You are a wonderful, compassionate soul.

Thank you for your kindness and compassion. I try to be a good person, though it is rarely easy when it takes so much constant focus and effort to hold my mind together and vaguely resemble a functional person. Life isn't fair. I have accepted that painful truth. But that doesn't mean that I have to like it.

 

[Maledictus]

3 times, though I'll admit the first time I was more in love with the idea of finally having a boyfriend than he himself. Second one I fell for while wasting my time with the first one, he actually felt the same but the problem was we weren't single. Currently in a happy relationship with my third love.

 

[alexithymia]

3 times, though I'll admit the first time I was more in love with the idea of finally having a boyfriend than he himself. Second one I fell for while wasting my time with the first one, he actually felt the same but the problem was we weren't single. Currently in a happy relationship with my third love.

I'm happy you're in a happy relationship

 

[Maledictus]

I'm happy you're in a happy relationship

Aw, thank you. :)

 

[Strangeasangels]

Once and she was a horrible person, emotionally abusive and a cheater. That was almost 20 years ago. What does that say about me???? I have been in lust/infatuation many times. I am over 50 and the reality that i will never know love with a decent human being is one of the reasons I want to die.

I Do not understand. I am educated, above average looking, have a decent job, great sense of humor when i am not completely miserable.... but the only people I attract, I find repulsive.

 

[Final Escape]

Many times, I've lost count lol! Although it was not love probably just infatuation. I guess I've never known what it's like because I failed at allowing a slow progression with someone to actually get to the point where I could say that.

 

[lotus11]

1 time. It ended because I am too fucked up, but I wish I could be with him forever

 

[LastFlowers]

I've never been in love in the typical sense. I don't think I am capable. I have too much of myself to worry about, and have lost so much, that I have nothing left to give. I also have problems with "love" and the damage it can cause.

However, I have held a deep affection and attachment toward relatives and of course, my beloved children (aka my CATS lol).

I have found value in some friendships as well, but have failed to be able to keep any going, I'm too far gone.

 

[c824767]

I like being in love and have been in love many times.

 

[Alchemist]

More than I would like, it only brings pain and misery.

 

[Erin Inari]

1 time. It ended because I am too fucked up, but I wish I could be with him forever

The same thing for me

 

[marconk]

1 unrequited love + many unrequited crushes

 

[Kuolema]

I fall in love with just about every nice girl I meet. Never actually been in love though. I don't even care anymore, I will die alone and I have accepted that.

 

[Skathon]

Zero while being awake.

 

[woxihuanni]

Difficult to say, 'in love' is such a fluffy concept.

When I was a kid, there was a kid who was very much like me (more privileged, though). There was something going on between us, though it did not add up to dating. I know that if we had started dating, we would grow up together. Later on I felt glad I had escaped that, that my bad luck with them was actually good. Because it's best to grow up alone and free, right? Plus, I ended up much better off than them, they would've dragged me down.

Nah, it is not. I'd have been better off living that thing when it was there, and then moving on if they were to drag me down. There'd have been years of pleasure rather than 'strength'.

So long and no thanks for all the fish you never let me eat, life.

 

[blanketyblk]

Twice and i managed to find my soul mate too. it was amazing. god i miss those days.

 

[Sargasm]

i managed to find my soul mate too. it was amazing. god i miss those days.

You and me both. The world was beautiful and life made sense, at least for a little while.

 

[Rachel74]

Real love then it's two. My ex hubby who is still my best friend and my current partner.
My 2 ex husbands before that were just there at the right time and I've real deep hate for them both.

 

[SJP]

About four times I think