I think love is a wide word. But honestly I can't count how much. I'm glad that I'm not in a relationship now although it was painful not to be with loved ones anymore
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seekingoblivion
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- Dec 11, 2018
- 454
stellabelle
ethereal
- Dec 14, 2018
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Cluesome
- Apr 5, 2018
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Astral316
Specialist
- Aug 26, 2019
- 332
Wayfaerer
JFMSUF
- Aug 21, 2019
- 1,938
Unless you count elementary and middle school crushes (skipped high school), then never. Those were the last times I've ever had girls show overt interest in me. I still remember that older hapa chick from 7th grade who I was friend's with... Makes me think "what if" even to this day.Last edited:
sadgirl2002
Fallen Angel
- Apr 9, 2019
- 452
LuzurPhagget
Experienced
- Sep 15, 2019
- 288
I thought I was "in love" a few times in high school, but lol my awkward, anxious ass barely even talked to those girls.
I think I felt love, or at least the closest thing I'll ever get to it, within the last 3 years. But now, I'm seriously doubting my retarded ass is even capable of such a thing.
I think about her everyday. Never met anybody sweeter, goofier. Smart, caring, strong, humbled, selfless almost to a fault. Incredibly darling. And to think she even liked me too. It almost felt a new world had opened up to me. But I think she's better off without me. The depths I sink to, it's best I keep to myself. One thing for sure though, in my last moments before drifting into endless sleep, she'll definitely be at the forefront of my thoughts like she has been these last few years.Once or a few times: the one, the few, the many honestly I can't remember too much maybe it was all a dream. A dream so real that I wish it were real or at least dead so I don't have to have these dreams.
Hydra
New Member
- Sep 26, 2019
- 4
tomz323
Walking to the bus stop
- Mar 29, 2019
- 367
Pain, but the kind that you want more of?
I don't know.
I'm not sure I've ever experienced a genuine version. Familial, romantic, the kind toward a pet?
The notion of "am I even doing it right?" is always there so it continues to be a foreign emotion.
LuzurPhagget
Experienced
- Sep 15, 2019
- 288
Darkhaven
All i have left is memories
- May 19, 2019
- 979
Depends:
- With someone else's body? I get in love everyday with hundreds of people (social media + real world).
-With someone else's personality? Never happened once in my lame 22 years of life.Never. As a teenager and into my 20's I would get infatuated with people who had no interest in me. It's quite cringe-worthy thinking back on how I would end up mewling by myself over someone who barely knew that I existed.
From my late 20's after a really bad experience I can't let anyone get too close to me which is unfortunate as there are at least two women who would have been awesome partners.
Sweet emotion
Enlightened
- Sep 14, 2019
- 1,325
I've never been in love and if you have to think about it, it wasn't love. I never got the chance to be in love. I dont think anyone can really be in love in high school. I got sick with Complex Regional Pain Syndrome which is the highest ranking pain condition in medical history at 20 years old so I missed all those important growing years. I'm 34 now and am going to die without ever knowing what love feels like which breaks my heart.
Azzy69
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- Aug 8, 2019
- 605
Numbtopain97
deader than dead
- Aug 10, 2019
- 443
Sweet emotion
Enlightened
- Sep 14, 2019
- 1,325
Oh so you're 22. I always wondered how old you were.
I understand. I think it could have happened to me if I didn't get sick with Complex Regional Pain Syndrome. I had a lot of guys that wanted to be with me but that's all they wanted. Just to have sex with me and talk about it with the other guys at work. And I wasn't going to put myself in that position. The night that I was going to have sex with a guy I really cared about he told me that he would be sleeping with other people than just me. Ok hold the phone. No way in hell was I going to be a side piece or a day if the week girl. Then soon later I got sick. So no I never fell in love. And I have a lot of love to give and I don't mean to sound conceited but in a really cool chick. I think someone out be lucky to have me.
No
That's not love. Those are crushes.ive never found love either. I think I could have if I didn't get sick.Last edited:
Blackjack
I’ll be watching...
- Aug 6, 2019
- 777
Norest4thewicked
Losing it
- Nov 4, 2018
- 270
walker
Member
- Apr 8, 2019
- 10
In love, as in the kind that makes you willing to sacrifice yourself for someone else? Zero times.
I've had many crushes, though. Mainly the sexual kind.
Katerina
If only she knew
- Sep 21, 2019
- 57
Married once thought it was love but it wasn't til I met my current partner I realised what love is
dreamsofdestruction
Everywhere I look is chaos
- May 9, 2019
- 340
White_Room293
rapid cycling gay guy
- Sep 13, 2019
- 155
Why would you sacrifice yourself for others? I've kinda had dates and gotten infatuated with people but I would never sacrifice my future for someone else. I am always number one.Never, I'm not wired that way. Something deep inside prevents me from being able to experience true love. Crushes-affection-feelings yes, but there is always a line I can't cross.
