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How many separate days have you seriously attempted CTB?

  • Never

  • 1-2 times

  • 3-5 times

  • 6-10 times

  • 11-20 times

  • 21+ times


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fedup1982

Wizard
Jul 17, 2025
633
Poll: How many times have you attempted CTB where you believed it could work at the time?
 
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Sprite_Geist

Sprite_Geist

NULL
May 27, 2020
1,699
If semi-attempts count then I have tried twice. The first attempt was before my 21st birthday, and the second was some time in my mid-twenties.
 
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annasplight

annasplight

'she's being impossible!'
Aug 6, 2024
79
I've had about three super serious attempts on my life. The others were serious, yes, but they didn't result in hospitalization.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,490
I haven't properly as I'm so cruelly denied the option to cease existing peacefully that is guaranteed, I find it so horrific and terrifying how trying to die can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering and torture, all I want is some peace, I just want to never suffer ever again with this dreadful and deeply undesirable existence finally all gone and forgotten about, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing with no more pain and no more suffering.
 
skraplott

skraplott

Member
Aug 10, 2025
9
not sure if it counts as serious but i did try to hang myself with a belt when i was 13, obviously didn't work and i broke my wardrobe.
 
RMDuck

RMDuck

Member
Apr 23, 2025
8
I've done it a few times at this point, all my methods to CBT would have worked in theory, but because of oversights in preparation all have not gone to plan. Highlights/lowlights include isopropanol, electrocution, opioids, chloroform and inert gass
 
MourningFlower

MourningFlower

existed.
Jan 8, 2025
77
I've made 5 attempts total, 2 of which I was hospitalised for.
 
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