How many people here indulge in alcohol and other drugs?

[srk003]

Rather frequently? It's obviously not conducive to a long term plan rationally speaking but it works for me. I guess it's self medicating. Kratom, phenbut and booze so too nothing serious. I find that I need to take the edge off things.

 

[TimeToDie]

I would if only there was something that worked for me. Tried kratom though it didn't work for me and I think I took something like 70 capsules maybe. Phenibut did nothing but make me vomit. Alcohol used to work though I stopped drinking early this year because I found that it no longer calmed me. So many folks love benzos but they do nothing for me, which is a real bitch since anxiety is my primary problem. I gave up on pot since I don't enjoy it, at best it will make me a bit sleepy. I can't get my hands on the drugs I really want to to try (or try further). If I could get anything I wanted I'd seriously experiment with ketamine and GHB. Would also love to try hallucinogens and MDMA. I also wish Nembutal & Seconal were still in use as sleeping pills. I haven't been able to sleep since early March and every damn sleep aid has failed me.

 

[GeorgeJL]

Not too long ago I took psychedelics. Their not addictive like hard drugs. I realize that there is a world of difference between heroin and psychedelic 2c-b.

 

[Identity]

Yes, many of us here probably do.

Personally, I thank god for the existence and availability of some certain drugs. I sit at home all day every day doing absolutely nothing, and that shall be my fate until I finally ge the chance to leave this miserable life of mine.

Without drugs, my boredom and overthinking (anxiety, stress) would be unbearable to the point I'd probably CTB immediately.

 

[srk003]

Personally, I'm trying to cut down a bit on the drink. Kratom although it has some side effects is easier on the body, and mind really. Phen is OK too but some people say it say it can kick you in the ass with a discontinuation syndrome. But yeah being completely sober isn't an option for me at the moment. I'd like to get my hands on some psychedelics - I haven't tried them. No interest in heroin, meth and the like.

 

[Dead beat dad]

Rather frequently? It's obviously not conducive to a long term plan rationally speaking but it works for me. I guess it's self medicating. Kratom, phenbut and booze so too nothing serious. I find that I need to take the edge off things.

I love drugs and booze and all manner of nefarious and illicit activities, but those days are behind me and now I am clean as a whistle. I used to get buzzed from exercise, but now that is prohibited so now I just watch Coronation Street and eat a lot of bland pasta

 

[Kringle's Curse]

I'm a borderline alcoholic.

 

[Sailfisher]

Not yet. Considering alcohol.

 

[Alec]

I feel like my situation is a bit funny. I'm 22, and I got drunk only once in my life and it was only slightly drunk when I was 16. I haven't been drinking ever since, I used to smoke when I was 16 but I quit when I turned 18. Now I don't smoke, I don't drink any alcohol at all, not even beer. And I've never done any drugs. But a lot of people, even here, say that stuff like drugs or alcohol help them with the depression and suicidal thoughts so frankly, I want to try to make myself feel a bit easier. But if I'm honest I'm scared. In a mental and emotional and even physical situation that I'm in, I'm afraid that if I'll try drinking alcohol or drugs I'll get crazy addicted because of the relief they might make me feel, and then I won't ever be able to stop. And since I want to die it doesn't really matter if I stop since I'll be dead anyway but what scares me about it is that I won't be able to stop because I won't know how to face my feeling anymore, face them and feel them. I'm not doing a great job of facing my feelings right now but I think it's gonna get even worse if I'll find some relief, even it's temporary I might just be able to keep trying to get that temporary relief again and again. And I want to be able to face my feelings. Because they are who I am, and I want to stay myself, and stay real!

 

[hybridtheory]

I do. Without alcohol and drugs, I would have nothing else getting me through each day.

 

[justanotherday]

Ahhhh... sometimes alcohol

 

[MaybeMaybeKnot]

I've been trying to reset my tolerance for the last month or so. My meds all got adjusted and I lost the desire to do everything. I stopped smoking, drinking, vaping. Then I decided to stay that way for a bit since I'm still not craving. I used to looooove opioids but I've gotten too used to them and I don't get off on them anymore. I'd love to get my hands on some H or F and maybe accidentally ctb like that, but I'm too scared to try to find a source.

 

[Squiddy]

Sometimes weed and a bit of alcohol here and there

 

[JimFord99]

Alcohol, lots of it. The only thing which keeps me calm and sane. I will consider H, V and C when it comes towards the end.

 

[Saroshi]

I indulge in sugar when I'm down. I'm afraid of maybe having an addictive personality...

 

[MeltingHeart]

Alcohol, nicotine & caffeine- I had started to cut down as I got a little
older- wanted to be a bit healthier - but obvs now I feel the way I do- I don't care about my health at all- only catch is my tolerance to Booze is getting stronger so I don't think
it can help with SI as much now. But then I don't think it really did before anyway...

 

[AgonyOnMe]

About 20 years ago I "accidently" took too much Benadryl and have been addicted to it ever since. For the last 2 years I have been using 24/7 but it's getting to where the high only last for a couple of hours, if that. Being sober is speeding up my ctb schedule. (probably more out of boredom than anything.)

Not too long ago I took psychedelics. Their not addictive like hard drugs. I realize that there is a world of difference between heroin and psychedelic 2c-b.

I remember reading something not too long ago about mushrooms being treated for depression.

Like MeltingHeart & Saroshi, I'm also addicted to sugar, caffeine and nicotine but I consider those to be more like maintenance rather than mood altering.

 

[Moon Flower]

I used to smoke a lot of weed and do a lot of psychedelics, but I don't have those kinds of connections where I live now. I just smoke a lot of cigarettes now.

 

[Mr. Sensitive]

Best drug I ever took was acid and they were not addictive. I"ve done them a about a dozen times over a period of 20 years. Always made me happy, laugh at everything and cry because of laughing so much. My favorite was double barrel purple microdot that we had in the late 70"s early 80"s. I wish I had 4 hits to take right now.

 

[truthseeker]

One of my troubles is getting enough sleep. I have a hard time getting in the groove and staying there. No stranger to insomnia. I've been at a point where various prescription sleeping pills had no effect whatsoever. Mostly due to other meds I was taking. Out of sheer desperation I broke a promise to myself and started smoking weed again. I think the first day/night I slept 6 hours straight. It's been my routine since, a bowl at bedtime. Doesn't always help but often enough.

 

[THCTemplar]

Pot helps me feel a little better.

 

[RainAndSadness]

I take some drugs. For example, I take zolpidem every night to fall asleep. I can't sleep without it and I managed to get a prescription. I also tried weed, ketamine, LSD and MDMA in the past but I didn't like it very much, to be honest. It's just a weird experience and it seems I am one of the very few people on this globe that can't take weed very well. Kinda sucks but well... I regularly take cocaine and benzos right now and they're definitely my drug of choice. They make me feel really good and I like it. I don't intend to take opiates, I don't feel confident enough for that. Coke is very addictive and I think opiates would get me hooked really badly. And I also completely stopped smoking and drinking, these drugs are a waste of money.

 

[a_strange_day]

Benzos, Ambien and Opiates occasionally. Can't take weed, very bad trips and makes me paranoid. I don't smoke and don't drink though.

 

[Sharethepain]

Thinking of her is a drug I indulge in without a moment's rest. That said I had never been drunk, never did drugs except once smoked weed, don't even drink coffee, basically just live with the pain, no hands holding, pure nightmare difficulty only.

 

[Le_lacrime_di_marzo]

All my life I've been really square and never tried drugs or alcohol. Since I've become suicidal I've lost my self-preservation instinct and have tried any drugs and medicines I can get my hands on. I hated everything I tried except tramadol. Taking a large dose of tramadol every day is the only thing that brings me any kind of relief.

 

[Santiago]

I am/used to be extremely anti-drugs. Like up until this point I have never taken anything.

Though now that I have no intent to live much longer anyways, I have recently become extremely interested in a couple of them.

Planning to try marijuana first in one of the upcoming weeks and the goal would be to hit my number one on my bucket list (DMT) at the very end. That drug just sounds like something majestic when you hear people talk about it. Yet apparently it could backfire when you aren't mentally stable. It's scary.

 

[Im2high4this]

I am/used to be extremely anti-drugs. Like up until this point I have never taken anything.

Though now that I have no intent to live much longer anyways, I have recently become extremely interested in a couple of them.

Planning to try marijuana first in one of the upcoming weeks and the goal would be to hit my number one on my bucket list (DMT) at the very end. That drug just sounds like something majestic when you hear people talk about it. Yet apparently it could backfire when you aren't mentally stable. It's scary.

Ive broken through on DMT once before. Smoked it a few times, but it takes a good batch to break through on. I can't recommend it enough. Don't worry about not being mentally stable, your trip will have nothing to do with you haha. It's like a dream, you have trouble recalling it the more time passes...all I can remember, is being a god and knowing everything. Actually though, I knew everything. The thing you have to watch out for, even for non depressed people, is how depressed you will get when you return to reality, as the memory of being all-knowing fades by the second. If you do it, write down or record your trip the second you sober up. Same reason people keep a dream journal, because you won't remember what happened very quickly.

Also it's best to be monitored if you can. You lose control of body functions with a out of body experience. I pissed myself lol. I thought I was tripping for two days at least, snap back to reality, it's wasn't even 15 minutes.

 

[woxihuanni]

I'm incapable of drinking enough to get drunk, unless by rare accident. When I start getting drunk, body screams 'poison! poison!'. Irony being, of course, I'll go with poison.

Drugs, ahah. I tried a few puffs of weed and thought I was fucking dying. For days I was miserable. This brain does not like intervention.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

Rum lots of it, I am getting fat, but fuck the rum helps numb so much shit!!

 

[Woodnote]

I've never done drugs. I've managed to go my whole life without drinking until this year. Drinking is one of the few things that make life bearable right now.