How many people do you have that keep you from ctb?

[CatLove56]

Four. My aunt who I have never seen in person but talked on the phone many times very nice person. To far away to get the full emotional effect so that leaves three. Parents and sister. Bonus points for how I'd do it I'd say they would be very upset finding out about my suicide. My complete selfish thinking wishes these people would disappear to make it so much easier to actually get the job done.

 

[Apathy's Girl]

Two, my husband and my mom. Also my dog.

 

[sadeyesWA]

Three. My wife and both parents. As time goes by I've felt the effect waning. It won't last forever.

 

[empty]

Two: my mom and brother. And my pets.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

Zero

 

[Onthe29th]

Let's just say that moments like mine are the reason why people shouldn't take advantage of the people they love.

 

[seaweaves]

Until this past August, several. Now? Maybe one. When I'm being honest with myself, I've been slowly alienating into further isolation ever since a particular loss this summer, in order to keep those numbers down and enable myself should the time come.

 

[CatLove56]

Two, my husband and my mom. Also my dog.

I forgot my cat although sometimes I can't tell whether she's just using me for food lol

 

[Suicidebydeath]

One, but they're suicidal. Zero soon.

 

[britter]

Two, a friend and my sister. But it's more of a thin promise than anything else. I'm absolutely fine with CTB if it gets bad, but I know that for now at least I have to uphold what I said to both of them. When the time comes I don't think anything will stop me.

 

[heatdeath]

My Mom. I get sad when I think about how she'd react if she found my lifeless body or if she heard about my death from the police or some shit.

 

[gottago222]

there are many people who love me i have a big family but only i live inside my body and have to deal with my mind. if i gotta go, i gotta go. im comforted by the fact that i have this option

 

[Crazy4u]

my dog

 

[OrcWitch]

Cat, dad, girlfriend. My dad is going to be dead within a few years now that he has a terminal illness

 

[*Psyche*]

I'm not quite sure. I don't feel that my mother should have to bury her child, but we have a strained relationship. So, I'm kind of waiting for her to pass first.
I do have a pact with my bff to talk to her before I do anything. However, if I'm in the right state of mind, I doubt she could talk me out of it. I'd let her try. Tell her I feel better & do whatever I feel I need to do.

 

[Xta4Love]

There are 5 or more. My parents, sister and some friends. Yet I feel very alone with my mental health issues and living alone. What gottago222 says, I have to deal with my mind.

 

[downndone]

Quite a few but only three or four concern me. My main concern is a granddaughter that has already had one grandfather CTB. She is the most important person in my life and the thought of hurting her is very painful. i have written her a long letter that I hope will help her but I suspect the only person it's helping is me.

 

[VerbalWinter]

Maybe one. A friend who says they would help me not become homeless.

 

[needed_]

my mum and my youngest sister. I have 3 siblings but somehow I have the feeling the other 2 can deal with it much better than my baby sis. I don't care about my dad

 

[FuneralCry]

I have a few family members, but that is not what holds me back from ctb. I am held back by the lack of peaceful/reliable way to exit and also the fear of failure. It would be selfish of them to expect me to suffer for decades. I never even asked to exist in the first place.

 

[needed_]

I have a few family members, but that is not what holds me back from ctb. I am held back by the lack of peaceful/reliable way to exit and also the fear of failure. It would be selfish of them to expect me to suffer for decades. I never even asked to exist in the first place.

yes, definitely also my thought. the people i named hold me back to a certain point but when the time comes i really want to it will not hold me back to do it. we did not choose to live in this world

 

[Applebees]

Four. My aunt who I have never seen in person but talked on the phone many times very nice person. To far away to get the full emotional effect so that leaves three. Parents and sister. Bonus points for how I'd do it I'd say they would be very upset finding out about my suicide. My complete selfish thinking wishes these people would disappear to make it so much easier to actually get the job done.

It was one just a few months ago. Now it's none.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

One. My husband.

He needs me and loves me more than I deserve, and I have so much trouble thinking of leaving him on purpose.

The only time I am able to ignore this is when my bipolar is in full force of my thoughts. When I have even a touch of my right mind functioning, I cannot imagine hurting him in this way.

 

[samsaragothands]

one, just my brother. i'm scared of leaving him alone with our parents. i'm trying to encourage him to not get as involved with them as i was before i ctb this year but i'm not sure if there's really anything i can actually do to make the transition any easier

 

[*Justanotherone*]

One. I have more people that I love (friends, family) but the person I'm living with is this one who really changed a lot. I'm still not fine and I guess I won't be, but it's much easier, for now enough to stay.

 

[JinZhin]

4. My brother, mother, and old friend and a neighbour. It's not that I'm worried they'd be sad when I'm gone, they just remind me to not do it from time to time...

 

[pole]

two. both my parents.

otherwise, I would've said peace out to this world and been gone from this hellhole by now.

 

[meetapple]

Three. my sister and parents and possibly my cousin. I feel bad that they are being punished for what others have done.

 

[ExitiumVitae]

One, my sister. I have been so secluded from everyone lately that when I go, no one will know that I have passed except my family. Knowing how much harm I am preventing by not forming bonds with people comforts me.

 

[ashfall]

My parents and siblings are the only ones making me hesitate. I know that other people - friends, extended family etc would also take my suicide badly but I'm in such a dark place I can't make myself care about them. If anything happened to my family I wouldn't wait 5 minutes to ctb after the funerals were over