How many of you plan to do it once you reach middle age or above that?

[Pessimisticer]

I'm in my late 20s and feel like the world is not a great place. The thing is whenever I see old people who struggle, I feel kind of sad. Two days before I got a forwarded message in which an old man's photo was there. He was there in my locality. He had lost his way back home and doesn't remember where he lives. Kind of sad.

I've never wanted a family of my own. I just don't have that kind of wishes in me. Don't know why. So I think I'll remain single for a long time. Once I hit middle age, I plan to catch the bus. That's how I wish to have the end. I don't want to end up in some nursing home shitting in my pants and feeling sad and all. Are there others like me in here who don't want to do it as of now but consider doing it once reaching middle age?

 

[LaughToNotCry]

"Choose to die well while you can; wait too long, and it might become impossible to do so."

— Musonius Rufus

 

[NoLightRemains]

I'm personally waiting until I turn 30 (next year). Old enough where I've given life some solid tries and effort, young enough so I don't have to suffer 30+ more years. I hope I'm gone way before middle age. The thought of living that long is terrifying

 

[Rounded Agony]

"Choose to die well while you can; wait too long, and it might become impossible to do so."

— Musonius Rufus

This is always in the back of my freaking mind. One needs a decent level of autonomy and physical capability in order to achieve one's own end, and with cruel irony, the loss of such things can be the straw that breaks the camel's back, so to speak...

Do you happen to know the source of that quotation? I've been feeling I need more stoicism in my life.

 

[Pessimisticer]

"Choose to die well while you can; wait too long, and it might become impossible to do so."

— Musonius Rufus

Hmm...that's scary.

 

[madiroze]

I am a single woman who is about to turn 38. I have no children and no partner. I had the love of my life but we broke up in February due partly to my chronic Depression.

Under no circumstance will I be sticking around past 45 years of age and even that seems too old to me. The idea of ageing all alone, what sort of quality of life is that?

In a way, knowing I will be responsible for my imminent death has given me for the first time in my life a sense of liberation and freedom. I can now choose however I so wish to spend the next 7 years of my life. No responsibilities, no peer pressure, I'm a lost cause but a cause to myself. My mind is conflicted by the desire to die as soon as possible but then the other part of me thinks I can have the most wonderful years of my life before my inevitable demise. My entire life I've strived for what others expected of me to the extreme of having no sense of real authentic self, so why not now live how I've always wanted to live in the impending shadow of death? Am I finally alive? All I know is that I've been dead for 38 years.

 

[No blackangel]

I'm 48. Life has been great sometimes, but for the last year horrible. Stuck in an awful position with no escape. My marriage is emthy. The house to big. I have enough money to pay my bills, even a homeowner. Lost my drivers licence, lost my kids. Can't see a future really. Still, I have felt this way before, but I was younger and had hope. Now life seems past.

 

[Kali Yuga]

Yeah I just turned 30 and get flooded with nostalgia some times. I had it all in my younger years, but mental illness has slowly eroded the quality of my life and relationships. I've beaten depression many a times, I've managed anxiety… but I learnt it's not simply that, it's friggin bipolar. And the highs and lows seem to only get more extreme as time goes on.

 

[Hirokami]

I always envisioned doing it when I turn 30, actually. 30 years old seems to be a low point for almost everyone I know, even the pro-life normies.

 

[madebrief]

The beyond calling out to me at 30. I meant to enjoy life from now - no longer the case.

 

[Ligottian]

I'm 62 and should have done it about 20 years ago. I swore I would not put my parents through that trauma, though. They've been gone now for 5 and 6 six years, respectively. Just waiting for unbearability now.