I had a plan, with stuff that's supposed to get it done in matter of seconds(sorry if I'm speaking to vaguely, I don't want to actually say it in case my identity isn't well hidden), it was difficult to obtain, but I did get it anyway, huge amount of money was spent on it, and I tried my best to use it, did everything I could imagine, from getting drunk to just staring at it in bumfuck nowhere, but I just couldn't use the gosh darn thing, because if I end up using it and not succeeding, I will end up going to jail, that's for damn sure, cause that stuff is illegal.
Anyway, sorry if that's too long, I just didn't wanna make a new thread, so I ended up finding this amazing place, and now I'm going with hanging, I've already set up everything, the first few tests were horrible and I hated it because it was giving me a horrible pain in my neck, however, after some more tests, it seems like I've got it right, and it seems easy and peaceful enough, right now it's just a matter of time, I just have to stick my head in there, I'm trying to build up some courage, we will see, I'm lucky enough that nobody's gonna walk on me or see the thing that's set up, we will see, wish me luck.