How many here on disability versus how many here work?

[purplemoon]

waiting on a decision. it's been a lengthy, complicated and confusing process, strange how inaccessible disability benefits seem to be for those who need it.

love being treated like a child and an alien at the social security office. I'm sick, not stupid.

anyway, I've had over 20 jobs in 8 years, I can never hold myself together for very long before breaking down. it's fine at first, then the mask deteriorates when i inevitably run out of energy to maintain the facade, the panic attacks and exhaustion come, i start to act fucking weird, I attract a bully or two, it all just goes to shit.

I'm not sure what im going to do if I am rejected, im barely surviving. of course I'll be making barely enough with benefits, but at least i could work just a few hours each week and still make rent and feed myself without flailing around in a job that's making me sick. maybe even find myself a therapist, if I'm feeling feisty.

Hi,
This post is over a year old, so I'm not sure if you're still on here, but how did the disability go for you? I can relate to a lot of what you shared also. It's like they punish you for normal and natural reactions to people that are being cruel. It's crazy, shouldn't they be going after the bully?

Why do they go after the victim instead? Why is it on the victim to not show a reaction and put on a performance all day?

If they just got rid of the bully at work, everybody could be happier.

I don't understand it. Does anyone understand it? It's really ridiculous!

 

[dunkelheit]

My specialist said I wasn't eligible for disability which is bullshit considering every other aspect of applying was 100% fine.

I still got neetbux though, I worked as a labourer for about 6 years so any asshole who think I'm a tax leech is full of shit. I paid a good share of taxes in that time.

 

[kohaku]

i tried applying for disability but it went horrible and i never want to go through that experience again. i'm young so the woman accused me of wanting money to party, when i cried out of anxiety she told me to "stop the hysterics" and when it was all over and done i had the worst dissociative episode i've ever had. i was signed up for a visit with a psychiatrist who then claimed it was just my medication that caused me to be tired and depressed because it's "a known effect of antidepresssants".

i dunno why the healthcare system and poland's insurance system both have to treat mentally ill/disabled people like actual garbage. even just recalling this brings back the vague urge to cry. it's really painful and i've been humiliated and degraded so many times.

i've tried getting a job but just the mere act of looking is exhausting to me. i had my first interview ever yesterday and the man wanted me to work 12 hours without overtime pay. i wanted to fucking kill myself. i'm really tired of it.

 

[dunkelheit]

i tried applying for disability but it went horrible and i never want to go through that experience again. i'm young so the woman accused me of wanting money to party, when i cried out of anxiety she told me to "stop the hysterics" and when it was all over and done i had the worst dissociative episode i've ever had. i was signed up for a visit with a psychiatrist who then claimed it was just my medication that caused me to be tired and depressed because it's "a known effect of antidepresssants".

i dunno why the healthcare system and poland's insurance system both have to treat mentally ill/disabled people like actual garbage. even just recalling this brings back the vague urge to cry. it's really painful and i've been humiliated and degraded so many times.

i've tried getting a job but just the mere act of looking is exhausting to me. i had my first interview ever yesterday and the man wanted me to work 12 hours without overtime pay. i wanted to fucking kill myself. i'm really tired of it.

It's unfortunately like that in a lot of other countries. Over here they've made it so strict as to what constitutes a disability in regards to mental health.

All those who defraud the system get it easy while people like us who genuinely need assistance are treated like criminals. It's fucking horrendous

 

[tabletop]

I work full time. I hate it.

 

[Thereisnothing]

I am on long term sick, numerous nasty, physical illnesses and conditions. Would love to work and have a career, makes me feel totally inadequate and living off state benefits doesn't sit well with me personally........when I think what I could've done, makes me weep.

 

[faust]

I was looking for mental health disability options, but I can't get any.
Meanwhile I was told that "it is not that bad for a disability"
Will be working again in a while to save for my final trip.

 

[intheweeds]

I'm on SSI, and I fucking hate it. I've been on it for six years now.

I'd rather work. I know working would keep my mind busy & build self-esteem, but instead I just sit around in this small room and do nothing going on six years now. It's just worsening my depression and making me feel worthless and burdensome.

I really wish there was any other way out of this situation besides suicide.

 

[Maravillosa]

I have been on SSI and Medi-Cal (California Medicaid) since 2004, shortly after I was obliged to leave grad school. (I keep hearing that it is hard to get on SSI and that even those who are ultimately successful in receiving it are rejected when they first apply. However, I was accepted without having to go through an appeals process.) I have never had full-time gainful employment and have not worked part-time for some 20 years. I would like to be able to earn a modest yet decent living from writing novels. However, I don't want to lose my Medi-Cal, since my physical and psychological health are not the greatest: I would not be able to afford comprehensive health insurance if my income were too high for Medi-Cal (unless I won big in the lottery or something like that).

 

[Squiddy]

Currently on SSI for the time being. I hope to work in the future.

 

[bananas39]

Ive been trying to get SSDI for 5 and a half years. I was in a car accident that caused brain damage, I have severe depression and anxiety, if I work I can only handle part time with frequent breaks and Ive only had one job that allowed me to take the breaks I need. I have trouble with impulsivity. My spine is fractured and it didn't heal so I have arthritis. My collarbones were broken and I had metal plates and my skull was shattered so I have a lot of neck pain from scar tissue. I don't comprehend verbal directions well due to the brain damage and I also say things I shouldn't accidentally. If my current application gets denied again I'm definitely getting a lawyer because I looked at the Social Security website and I have at least 10 disabilities that qualify me as unable to work, it's not my life plan to collect disability I'm in college and I plan to get my psychology degree.

 

[LegaliseIt!]

I have both physical and mental health problems, but my husband has a good job, and so I don't qualify for disability.

This is unfair to him, and his job does not decrease my daily struggles and pain.

I am still disabled, but apparently our right wing provincial government believes that I am chattel.

Just another reason to ctb.

 

[Nem]

I work two jobs and I'm so fucked up it's amazing I even get out of bed. I sleep three hours a night and it is incredibly hard if not impossible to get out of bed each day. A couple of factors have kept me here still but ideally I should be ending my life very soon
Peace/hugs

 

[diyCTB]

They refused me disability and I can't work either. I am doomed and hope I will die.

 

[ComingClose]

I work 7 days a week, just over 50 hours, and I love it. Its very physical but I manage a small team of 10-12 people who all get on well, the atmosphere's absolutely brilliant and so so much better than at home. Without my job, I don't think I'd cope with life at all.

 

[wiIIow]

Hi,
This post is over a year old, so I'm not sure if you're still on here, but how did the disability go for you? I can relate to a lot of what you shared also. It's like they punish you for normal and natural reactions to people that are being cruel. It's crazy, shouldn't they be going after the bully?

Why do they go after the victim instead? Why is it on the victim to not show a reaction and put on a performance all day?

If they just got rid of the bully at work, everybody could be happier.

I don't understand it. Does anyone understand it? It's really ridiculous!

Still waiting, still limping my way through work as best as I can. Thank you for checking.

And I suppose that's just the way it is for the meek and vulnerable. I feel there isn't really a place for me, except for away from people, until I can finally address some deep-seated reasons why I am this way. Until then, I'll carry on with a target planted on my back, and my eyes planted on the floor. C'est la vie, and all that shit.

 

[NeverMatteredAnyway]

Still waiting, still limping my way through work as best as I can. Thank you for checking.

And I suppose that's just the way it is for the meek and vulnerable. I feel there isn't really a place for me, except for away from people, until I can finally address some deep-seated reasons why I am this way. Until then, I'll carry on with a target planted on my back, and my eyes planted on the floor. C'est la vie, and all that shit.

Someone hurt me at my job, my workers comp case denied, now, having to pay for expensive ins for medical care, fired in an email from my job thursday. Retaliation for the workers comp claim. Ive been bullied all my life. Now im skiddish and if someone messes with me or if i perceive they are, I tend to overreact. I dont belong near the same bad ppl everyday. Most ppl I find at jobs are lacking in integrity. They fired me bc Im hurt. Not once was I asked how am I doing, are you ok. Piled overtime on me, I did it. Then fired me. Scum fuckers. Dr appt this Wed finally!!!!!!! Too bad everyone from this site couldnt be my co-workers, I could finally be happy!

 

[terry_a_davis]

I was a student for a few years, then worked pt, then full time over about 16 years. I've been unemployed for 11 years, on disability payments for 10. I've been reassessed for benefits a few times, most of the time i got refused which i had to appeal and won. One time i got refused for benefits i was forcibly resident in a mental hospital yet the state judged me as not ill.

 

[TAW122]

I did work at some time in the past (last year, in 2019), but currently unemployed and also not on disability. Before then, I tried to get on disability (SSI) but was denied because I did not meet their criteria for being 'disabled' to qualify for their benefits.

 

[NeverMatteredAnyway]

Hi,
This post is over a year old, so I'm not sure if you're still on here, but how did the disability go for you? I can relate to a lot of what you shared also. It's like they punish you for normal and natural reactions to people that are being cruel. It's crazy, shouldn't they be going after the bully?

Why do they go after the victim instead? Why is it on the victim to not show a reaction and put on a performance all day?

If they just got rid of the bully at work, everybody could be happier.

I don't understand it. Does anyone understand it? It's really ridiculous!

Bc of what im going through someone hurting me, and becoming suicidal I found a therapist. I have the same cycle of ppl bullying me, always have, she said when you attract narcissists and when you stand up for yourself they ATTACK. Like, full force wothout a remorse. I tend to make ppl at my jobs my friends and thats why i lose so many jobs. My ex best friend was my boss at a job and she completely fucked me over and I stood up for mysekf and said something. Anyway my therapist said we're going to work on red flags and boundaries in a way that these ppl wont annihilate my life. I attract bad ppl. I feel safe being their dancing monkey for a while but eventually they turn on me. Its inevitable it seems. I never plan in staying at a job longer than a year. Id have stayed at this one if someone hadnt hurt me and i had to file a workers comp claim and I was fired in retaliation. Its very sad, i LOVED this job. The clients loved me and I'll miss them.
And they never go after the bully. The bully fights back, the bully reveals secrets, the bully bullies back. They go after the weak one bc they dont fear retailation and therefore any risk or god forbid extra work. Thats what i think anyway.

I was a student for a few years, then worked pt, then full time over about 16 years. I've been unemployed for 11 years, on disability payments for 10. I've been reassessed for benefits a few times, most of the time i got refused which i had to appeal and won. One time i got refused for benefits i was forcibly resident in a mental hospital yet the state judged me as not ill.

How do these ppl live with themselves? In a facility but not ill? Ohhh I get it. They were hoping youd be too ill to fight the decision. Ugh. Horrible ppl.