How.many failed attempts have you had

[Hotsackage]

I've tried hanging multiple times. Cant seem to get it right. How about you

 

[InkBlot]

Ive been hospitalized or jailed for attempts 3 times, with another 2 unsuccessful attempts didnt get medical assistance for. But those 2 attempts were practice runs more than anything.

We don't fail though bud, we find ways not to die. It took Thomas Edison 1001 attempts to make a lightbulb, not 1000 failures, but successes that resulted in something other than a lightbulb. Be positive about your attempts, they are learning experiences.

 

[NOT]

I tried to OD on antipsychotics and benzodiazepines 2 times but woke up in the hospital both times. Wasn't really trying to kill myself just was desperate, neither was I informed about what drugs to drink and how much. Also I was very quickly recovered by my father and was taken to hospital where they made me vomit everything.
But nevertheless on my second attempt my psychiatrist was out of his mind because they thought that I would just stop breathing.

 

[BridgeJumper]

30. Hanging, lying on tracks, OD, slitting wrists, jumping off bridges, standing on the ledge of a building, stabbing an outlet with a fork, drinking peroxide, drinking tea fom yew leaves, partial hanging, brick to the neck and trying to drown myself, tried jumping in front of a car from an overpass and many variations of these like jumping + OD etc.
Im a giant pathethic failure and an attention seeker tbh, I should long be dead but the survival instinct is too much

 

[TAW122]

I had zero failed attempts simply because I did not attempt suicide at all. This is because I know my method and also the circumstances in which I would commit suicide hasn't happened yet. I have gotten close to wanting to attempt it at times such as having a plan, method, and date (in the past), but never acted on them since I haven't reached that breaking point yet. Finally, given my method (firearm via shotgun), there is no just 'attempting' because you only have one attempt and if you fail it, you may never get another chance again (you end up as a vegetable and/or sectioned without the ability nor means to try again at a later date).

 

[Deadgirl]

I have had 2, one was OD the other was strangulation with a sock in a psych unit. The sock almost worked.

 

[Hotsackage]

I have had 2, one was OD the other was strangulation with a sock in a psych unit. The sock almost worked.

What did you tie the sock to

 

[Deadgirl]

What did you tie the sock to

I think to a shower head or maybe my hands. My memory is a bit hazy for that moment but i did go unconscious. I think the staff cut of the sock. My advice is don't take advantage if you're 1:1 like that. After that i had to have a nurse watch me shower.

 

[Marz]

I've had about 7. First was when I was 13. Attempting so young fucks you up mentally, I'm sure.

 

[Jon86]

0-10 or so depending on how you define a suicide attempt. All, aborted partial suspension hanging attempts over a period of 6 or so years. Is it a true attempt if you back out? idk, it's like jumping off a bridge with a parachute and pulling the chute or taking N then inducing vomiting. I never committed 100% because the guilt was too strong and I always stood up.

 

[tomz323]

None technically, I've gone to the edge and tried to jump twice and once tried to will myself to jump in front of a train.

 

[clover___]

I've had a few, tending to get more serious over time. Failed attempts are learning experiences, I wouldn't say I've ever been pleased to survive one though. I've been hospitalised for two (one recently with sn and another earlier last year with a cocktail of a few drugs), had urgent non-hospital care for another (first "serious" attempt, I was a teenager, paracetamol, stupid idea), had a couple others I probably should've had medical attention for (big scars on my wrists that will never heal that needed stitches and only got steri-strips, a couple of attempts at asphyxiation that resulted in unconsciousness but not death). A few less "serious" attempts: often in less capable mental states or with not enough research, attempts at partial or full suspension that either did nothing or knots came undone/swelling in head got too uncomfortable to continue, stupid shit like drinking bleach or trying to drown myself in the bathtub, trying to jump off of things and not having the guts. A bit of a variety I guess. I would guess it's in the low dozens now. What really counts though?
Edit: oh, another stupid one! I was overseas somewhere much colder than home and wandered out into the snow semi-naked in the middle of the night hoping hypothermia would take me. Someone came and got me.

 

[Djee]

1

 

[Koal]

Last year I tied a bunch of scarfs to my face to try and suffocate myself. It was either that or climb inside the freezer.

 

[John Smith]

30. Hanging, lying on tracks, OD, slitting wrists, jumping off bridges, standing on the ledge of a building, stabbing an outlet with a fork, drinking peroxide, drinking tea fom yew leaves, partial hanging, brick to the neck and trying to drown myself, tried jumping in front of a car from an overpass and many variations of these like jumping + OD etc.
Im a giant pathethic failure and an attention seeker tbh, I should long be dead but the survival instinct is too much

Did you fail at full or partial and why? Also how high did you jump from?

 

[Powderedmonster]

2 attempts, ~30 practice runs.

 

[John Smith]

I've had a few, tending to get more serious over time. Failed attempts are learning experiences, I wouldn't say I've ever been pleased to survive one though. I've been hospitalised for two (one recently with sn and another earlier last year with a cocktail of a few drugs), had urgent non-hospital care for another (first "serious" attempt, I was a teenager, paracetamol, stupid idea), had a couple others I probably should've had medical attention for (big scars on my wrists that will never heal that needed stitches and only got steri-strips, a couple of attempts at asphyxiation that resulted in unconsciousness but not death). A few less "serious" attempts: often in less capable mental states or with not enough research, attempts at partial or full suspension that either did nothing or knots came undone/swelling in head got too uncomfortable to continue, stupid shit like drinking bleach or trying to drown myself in the bathtub, trying to jump off of things and not having the guts. A bit of a variety I guess. I would guess it's in the low dozens now. What really counts though?
Edit: oh, another stupid one! I was overseas somewhere much colder than home and wandered out into the snow semi-naked in the middle of the night hoping hypothermia would take me. Someone came and got me.

Why did you fail at full suspension? How long did you hang for?

 

[BridgeJumper]

Did you fail at full or partial and why? Also how high did you jump from?

I failed both with full and with partial. With partial I couldnt make myself pass out and all I got was a ligature mark that I needed to hide from my parents and with full I just stood on the chair with my head halfway in the noose but I was shaking so much I tripped and smashed my head into a drawer and gave up.
I jumped off a 15 meter bridge after taking 60 pills and with a backapck of bricks ducttaped to my back but I was fished out after I drowned. I tried to jump off a 40 meter bridge onto concrete but couldnt, I tried to jump off 8th floor of a high rise where my aunt lives and failed too.

 

[clover___]

Why did you fail at full suspension? How long did you hang for?

Issues with imprecise measurements and not accounting for the give in the rope I used.

 

[Quinlor]

Many many times, but it's funny because I know if I try full suspension hanging again I will die. So it's a seed in the corner of my head... I really want to do it etc. It's like devil talk to me.

 

[Davy]

one genuine attempt

 

[soda_pressed]

2 but they weren't proper attempts. they were test runs. Tried to hang myself, other time took xanax with alcohol

 

[k3v3r]

about 10 i would say :(

 

[John Smith]

Issues with imprecise measurements and not accounting for the give in the rope I used.

so your feet were touching the ground?

Many many times, but it's funny because I know if I try full suspension hanging again I will die. So it's a seed in the corner of my head... I really want to do it etc. It's like devil talk to me.

Why didn't the first try at full work?

one genuine attempt

what was your method?

 

[housecat]

0. The first time I was actively suicidal, it became clear that my plan wasn't going to work out and I gave up and just decided to spend my time sleeping. Recently, I put things off and the urge died down enough to not go ahead with my plan.

 

[Retched]

As a teen- one. Last year one serious attempt that I regret being found to this day and then several attempts with partial, one of which I believe would have worked but I pulled myself up... After I bought my gun, I sat with it to my head several times but I don't know if that counts as attempts. SI took over with the gun. Haven't got it out for a long time or attempted with my SN or partial due to a few different reasons.

 

[Evan Horoszko]

3 serious ones and two I didn't get hospitalized for but all were just desperation attempts. I didn't think or research before trying I just did it to try and stop living.

 

[clover___]

so your feet were touching the ground?

After I jumped the tips of my toes did, yeah.

 

[Tabbyql]

Too many I literally don't know. 1st time I think I was like 9 or 10.

 

[littlelungs]

I've had a lot of half-assed attempts that I wouldn''t even really consider "failed" for me, personally, because they were... well... half-assed, and not really that well thought-out because of how impulsive they were.

As for serious failed past attempts, in which I fully expected to die, seven. Three of the attempts landed me in the hospital, three just made me really sick, and one made me panic and back out at the last moment.