Discussion How many drafts of your suicide note do you have and when do you think it will finally be finished?

[beefbaby]

I'm asking because it is shortly after 3PM where I am and I have decided to open my most recent version of my final letter to my loved ones do a bit of cleanup editng. It is currently about 4.5 pages long, but none of that makes any sense. I really want to outline it a bit more and arrange my thoughts in more a chronological order.

 

[Everydayismisery]

I've written several drawn out ones that express my heart and soul but ended up trashing them all because at end of the day you won't know how anyone feels when you're gone and in 80 years everyone will be dead anyways. If anything I'll leave a sticky note that says "The mental torment is unbearable, forgive me. I love you all" and leave it at that

 

[adventurer]

i've written a few but i've never actually finished them all the way. i'm not really sure why, i just haven't. i'd say i've written maybe seven or eight draft letters.

 

[Life_and_Death]

too many and not all recovered . sometimes theyre detailed, sometimes a quick "sorry but i have to"

 

[Doombox]

I've written several drawn out ones that express my heart and soul but ended up trashing them all because at end of the day you won't know how anyone feels when you're gone and in 80 years everyone will be dead anyways. If anything I'll leave a sticky note that says "The mental torment is unbearable, forgive me. I love you all" and leave it at that

I like this. I was working on a longer document and just can't get comfortable with it. Your short version covers all the bases. If anything I might add, "Thank you for all you have done for me and please know there's nothing you could have done differently," because I think the ones left behind can struggle with a burden of guilt. I like the idea of comparing notes and working on a template here together.

 

[abyss]

I've written a few drafts over the years, they get much shorter and to the point each time. It would basically just says sorry and leaves instructions now. There isn't much that can be said that will make it easier for the people who read it. Whether it is an essay or a post-it note, the takeaway will be that people will wish we hadn't done it regardless of what we're going through. It's hard to know what to do.

 

[Everydayismisery]

I like this. I was working on a longer document and just can't get comfortable with it. Your short version covers all the bases. If anything I might add, "Thank you for all you have done for me and please know there's nothing you could have done differently," because I think the ones left behind can struggle with a burden of guilt. I like the idea of comparing notes and working on a template here together.

Honestly I'll probably add exactly what you said, almost verbatim as I have had so much support and attempts to help. Should all fit on a small sticky note so I'm good with it

 

[chloramine]

Only one for the the letter to my family and a few of my friends. I've written at least 5 versions of the one to my best friend though. I haven't scrapped all of them because each of them captures different pieces of what I want to say. My one to my family was the easiest because I don't really feel any big sense of loss or guilt there. My friends are really important to me and I do feel bad about possibly making them feel guilty, so there have been more revisions and additions.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

3 pages of waffling about how not everyone can cope with life, how I can't function etc. reading it back it sounds like a load of adolescent whining crap lol so I think I need to amend it-got a few months. The emphasis being this was my own decision and don't feel any guilt etc. that's the most important thing.

 

[keitaro]

i'm not sure if i want to leave a note. but if i did, i would make sure it's not too long, preferably a page or less, cause a lot of people hate reading, especially when it's all melodramatic and depressing, lol, which mine might sound like. it will eventually be tossed aside and forgotten about, anyway, so might as well keep it short and simple.

 

[Doombox]

I can understand the desire to help people understand as best they can. But too many details gives them things that they would have wanted to argue with you about. Whereas just saying you can no longer live with the mental torment is something they can't argue against. I like the idea of providing an information sheet covering things like any passwords and financial information people might need.

 

[outatime_85]

I thought about using four pages, but I think with all my journal entries I will be down to two pages.

One page stating my reason for cashing out. (Not that my family really cares.)

One page outlining my funeral wishes and other pertinent info.

Maybe leave a delayed note for the forum.

This reminds me I need to devote some time to this.

 

[Doombox]

I thought about using four pages, but I think with all my journal entries I will be down to two pages.

One page stating my reason for cashing out. (Not that my family really cares.)

One page outlining my funeral wishes and other pertinent info.

Maybe leave a delayed note for the forum.

This reminds me I need to devote some time to this.

How do you leave a delayed note for the forum?

 

[Preparingforpeace]

Every time I write one, i miss something. And end up writing a completely new one anyway. Last one was 14 pages ugh

 

[outatime_85]

How do you leave a delayed note for the forum?

If I am not mistaken, when you type a response, you can set a date for it to post by pressing the "now" button.

 

[whitefeather]

A will is part of ones suicide note

 

[Hope:-)]

I'm just gonna split up the money ie share my wishes regarding my finances, and leave this as a note. I don't think a further note is very necessary in my situation.

 

[Ash’Girl]

When I start writing, words just flow from me.

At the end of the day I don't know if I really want to leave anything. I don't feel like I make any difference to anyones lives right now, I don't see my being gone would make a difference. I don't think in terms of my absence making anything worse or better for anyone anymore. I am just convinced it wouldn't make a difference either way. So maybe I will leave instructions for my furry ones care, but everything else… what can I say?

Do not grieve my passing, if so inclined: Try to be happy that I'm finally free of suffering.

 

[Doombox]

If I am not mistaken, when you type a response, you can set a date for it to post by pressing the "now" button.

Eureka! I never would have noticed that. What a fantastic option. Thanks!

 

[Thequietone]

I'm asking because it is shortly after 3PM where I am and I have decided to open my most recent version of my final letter to my loved ones do a bit of cleanup editng. It is currently about 4.5 pages long, but none of that makes any sense. I really want to outline it a bit more and arrange my thoughts in more a chronological order.

I wrote 6 letters and I wrote notes on my phone like 3 or 4 times. After I ordered some paper with clouds on it and wrote it down.

Took 4 to 5 hours but now I think they are finished.

 

[chyme]

I've lost count how many times I've tried to rewrite my suicide note. All my drafts have been thrown away or deleted out of embarrassment.
I keep trying to perfectly encapsulate my experience in its entirety, all into one note, only to give up in frustration every time.
I know I can't reasonably say everything I want to say; life is never that simple, and there is a lot words can't say.

I'll probably end up writing whatever comes to mind the day of. People are going to think what they want to believe, regardless of what I say.
If anything, I just want to give myself some sense of closure before I go.

 

[thelookingontheway]

I haven't write a draft, but I think if I write, I won't care whatever others would think whoever could see this, I just want to write what i think about this world

 

[Jrmull1993]

So far I've had good luck jotting key points down using Google's "Keep" note taking app. I can jot down lines, ideas, quotes and notes on my phone, then sit down and compile them into a letter later on.

I decided to write individual letters to family and friends whom are closest to me, totaling 6. So far, I have 2 of them complete. I plan on dropping them in the postal box before I call it quits.

I hope it's not too off topic, but you may want to read your local police department AND medical examiner's operating guidelines. (This may require a FOIL request). Where I live, suicide letters found on-scene are seized for evidence and only a transcript of what is written is given to the immediate family of the deceased.

While the mail will delay delivery of the letter for 2 or 3 days, I'd rather them go through that than never getting my letter.

 

[Graytaichi]

One part for my burial , i think i cut out the part on my reasons to suicide prolifers will never understand.

 

[Cryptonite]

Oh boy, I'm just starting to work on these letters. I plan to send them to at least 10 different people, so it will be a bit pain in the ass. I especially need to perfect the ones that will be addressed to the doctors who misdiagnosed my Scheuermann's disease. They need to remember that their total and needless negligence killed one young person who's been through so much and just wanted to live.

 

[worn_out]

I'm considering making a will to reduce the amount of scribbled pages lying around, but I have one handwritten note in case things happen suddenly. To me it mainly matters that people present know that I didn't die by any suspicious means, and also that it is not for any reason related to the people close to me.

 

[Jrmull1993]

I'm considering making a will to reduce the amount of scribbled pages lying around.

Be careful referencing suicide in a will, it opens a wormhole for someone claiming you were not in a good state of mind and can invalidate a will. If your using an attorney, look up your state laws, as New York (where I live) lawyers are mandated reporters for someone considering harming themselves or others.

 

[worn_out]

Be careful referencing suicide in a will, it opens a wormhole for someone claiming you were not in a good state of mind and can invalidate a will. If your using an attorney, look up your state laws, as New York (where I live) lawyers are mandated reporters for someone considering harming themselves or others.

Thank you, and yes I would not to indicate anything of that sort. I'm middle-aged now, so it's not that weird to have a will, plus I have potential stuff like surgery coming up that would make it more logical. I think it would leave my brain with less to think about and write, whereas I have a lot of jumbled paper right now.

 

[slushy]

Two, one for family and one to send to friends. I don't know when I'll be done, though I've definitely made progress recently. It's very difficult for me to write.

 

[want2dienow]

none. my note is fully compsoed and written. it state if i fail,pull te plug, i want to be cremated too. i am aslug that needs to disappear from exsitent and make at least one eprson happy