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Discussion How many days without CTB thoughts?

puppy9

puppy9

au revoir
Jun 13, 2019
1,238
iu
 
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Isadeth

Isadeth

Visionary
Jun 12, 2020
2,538
2
 
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puppy9

puppy9

au revoir
Jun 13, 2019
1,238
Back to zero, sad very sad. :ehh:
 
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Nymph

Nymph

he/him
Jul 15, 2020
2,565
Literally none
 
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Lost in a Dream

Lost in a Dream

He/him - Metal head
Feb 22, 2020
1,777
I'm currently at 0, but I made it through Saturday and most of Sunday without thinking about it. Even though I didn't quite make it to 2 days, it was still nice while it lasted.
 
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puppy9

puppy9

au revoir
Jun 13, 2019
1,238
Seeing day one soon. :I

Hope to get at least two
 
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Jumper Geo

Jumper Geo

Life's a bitch and then you die.
Feb 23, 2020
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puppy9

puppy9

au revoir
Jun 13, 2019
1,238
Almost Two. Please get me to three

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puppy9

puppy9

au revoir
Jun 13, 2019
1,238
On to 3 now,, maybe I lost count of time. A bit irritated but kinda okay, I guess

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puppy9

puppy9

au revoir
Jun 13, 2019
1,238
woke up and back to zero again :ehh:
 
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drwt

drwt

Member
Dec 1, 2020
58
No idea because if I think about it then I only want to die again.
 
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puppy9

puppy9

au revoir
Jun 13, 2019
1,238
zero and I hate myself. wanna disappear so bad :aw:
 
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self.destractive

self.destractive

ick/icks, they/them
Dec 11, 2020
85
so far so good for me today

i dont know if this is helpful but what do you like to do to distract yourself from thoughts of CTB? ive found that tea, crafts, and being around other people help immensely
 
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Symbiote

Global Mod
Oct 12, 2020
3,101
I had a relapse the other day, before then it was 12.
 
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Sensei

Sensei

剣道家
Nov 4, 2019
6,336
Zero. Even when I'm feeling fine, I tend to think of suicide at least once a day. The only time I never think of suicide is during hypomanic episodes, but they're unfortunately very rare.
 
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JW 92

Member
Nov 1, 2020
5
At the moment it's 0. I have had thoughts since the beginning of November. They have been difficult to ignore!
 
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Deleted member 19276

Wizard
Jun 28, 2020
682
Yikes Puppy! It's quite the difficult question for me.
 
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puppy9

puppy9

au revoir
Jun 13, 2019
1,238
lots of thoughts. Just need to overcome SI once and I'm done.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,925
I don't think I've ever had a streak of more than 2-3 days without thoughts on CTB'ing. I've usually at least have several passing thoughts of CTB during my day to day life.
 
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Lefty

Mage
Dec 7, 2018
530
Probably about a week or so. They come and go.
 
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muffin222

muffin222

Enlightened
Mar 31, 2020
1,188
0 so far... hopefully I can someday reach a point where they dissipate entirely for good.
 
kohaku

kohaku

Nonbinary Hysteric
Mar 27, 2019
188
One!!! Probably because I got high and buzzed today but still, it's a win. :happy:
 
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