Discussion How many attempts you've had and why you think you were unsuccessful

[DeathSleep]

I've had 2 attempts.
Overdose -before I realized the statistics on overdosing.
CO poisoning -survival instinct got the best of me. I should've used something to help drift off to sleep.

Does anyone think they'll try the same method and do it better/successfully next time? Or would you do a different method?

 

[thecolourgold]

I've had countless attempts.

Overdoses - not enough research, they rarely work.

Night night - can't hit carotid.

Partial suspension - can't pass out.

Full suspension - ligature broke, otherwise SI kicked in.

Tourniquet - can't get tight enough

 

[LastBusHome]

Two attempts so far about ten years apart. I've never been like super suicidal but the last couple years have pushed me closer to the edge.

First attempt was via a train. Got to the point where I was sat there waiting on the tracks but SI kicked in and I bailed.

Second attempt was through the night night method. Failed to squeeze shut my carotids effectively so I just took it off with a throbbing headache afterward. I think this was funny in a morbid way because my younger brother does BJJ and he taught me a few of the different chokes and shit whenever we'd hang out.

I'm in between methods right now but I've narrowed it down to two options. Still exploring viability in the time frame I set.

 

[CentreMid]

I've had 2 attempts.
Overdose -before I realized the statistics on overdosing.
CO poisoning -survival instinct got the best of me. I should've used something to help drift off to sleep.

Does anyone think they'll try the same method and do it better/successfully next time? Or would you do a different method?

2 serious attempts, 1 half-assed attempt. All partial hanging.

First attempt failed due to a bad noose and a lack of knowledge. Couldn't hold my full body weight without something going wrong.

Second attempt failed due to an improper setup. Didn't take the involuntary thrashing into account and accidentally detached my noose from the bar.

Third attempt failed because I chickened out (I was sitting on the fence around this time, trying to figure out if I could go through with recovery or not).

Attempt no. 4 later this year, been testing the setup and noose, everything seems to be going smoothly so far. Taking the time to really get to know and practice this method has really paid off! Hoping to finally succeed by the end of the year.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I had no attempts yet, but a first and hopefully last one may be so close.

 

[blacksand]

closest I've been was putting a shotgun in my mouth while drunk and pulling the trigger back to the absolute edge of its range before it fires. I was so ready to go. Eventually I just threw the gun down in revulsion at my cowardice to actually do it.

 

[TempusFugit]

One serious full hanging attempt where the rope unraveled and broke my ankle. My attempts for partial hanging is somewhere in the double digits but most were half assed and failed either because of instinctual thrashing or just being unable to compress my artery cause of a prominent adams apple

 

[quietly_gone]

so many, but most of them were mostly really naive methods. i was young and didn't know how to do it, just knew i wanted to die.

excluding those i'd say three hanging attempts in my adulthood, which i failed horribly at, but i'm counting it as practice. as someone in here once put it, "the carotids arteries are quite the art to find"...

 

[ForgottenTomb]

First attempt - Partial hanging
Failed because of: Involuntary thrashing against the floor and walls
Second attempt - Full suspension in a hotel
Failed because of: Police suddenly barging in.
Has anyone else had their attempt interrupted by police? When they came out of nowhere and intervened, I was shocked.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wouldn't say that I've ever properly attempted, the problem lies in the fact that we exist in this anti-suicide society where we are denied the option of a peaceful and guaranteed way to exit, there are so many risks and complications involved in trying to die which is why I've never attempted as I would fear a suicide attempt just going wrong. It's so horrible how it's this difficult to die and I hate how trying to leave can just lead to even more suffering being experienced and just make existence even more unbearable. This world truly is so hellish to me.

 

[bessops1976]

One serious full hanging attempt where the rope unraveled and broke my ankle. My attempts for partial hanging is somewhere in the double digits but most were half assed and failed either because of instinctual thrashing or just being unable to compress my artery cause of a prominent adams apple

I did similar - took an overdose then tried ligature, I fell and fractured the cuboid in my foot. Told the hospital I fell down the stairs. Took ages to heal... it's a terrible feeling to fail and suffer an injury

 

[DarkWillow22]

I tried twice, once an overdose and then later tried partial hanging after reading about people dying over it for tiktok challenges.
Despite overdose statistics, I'm willing to try that again, but since I have no prescription meds (and even then they generally never give you enough that could kill you if all taken at once) its about the right cocktail of OTC medications.
If I could get my hands on it, my working plan is to use ethylene glycol.

 

[picklemick]

First attempt - Partial hanging
Failed because of: Involuntary thrashing against the floor and walls
Second attempt - Full suspension in a hotel
Failed because of: Police suddenly barging in.
Has anyone else had their attempt interrupted by police? When they came out of nowhere and intervened, I was shocked.

Yes. And they took my SN. Now I need to hang

 

[qwert3948]

One, pain medicine overdose. I was young and l didn't pay attention to the fact that 1g was more than 500mg, so it ends up I took very little medication. Along the fact that statistics on overdose show it's very hard to die through it. I didn't get any damage from it at all, even if I had 3x the amount of medicine I took I probably wouldn't get that sick either.

Kinda sucks since i was much more naive and it was easier to do things on impulse. If I had been a little more cocky and hanged instead I'd be happily dead right now

 

[thgilrats]

I wouldn't say that I've ever properly attempted, the problem lies in the fact that we exist in this anti-suicide society where we are denied the option of a peaceful and guaranteed way to exit, there are so many risks and complications involved in trying to die which is why I've never attempted as I would fear a suicide attempt just going wrong. It's so horrible how it's this difficult to die and I hate how trying to leave can just lead to even more suffering being experienced and just make existence even more unbearable. This world truly is so hellish to me.

Actually, agreed. I remember reading in the news that a boy jumped out of the window of his apartment (10th floor) and SURVIVED. And these videos when a person was shot in the eye, had a bullet going through their head and STILL ALIVE and suffering is fucking. Terrifying. I was so convinced that dying from the fall or from the gun was the most easy and almost 100% guaranteed way to die buT APPARENTLY IT'S NOT? That's just horrifying.

 

[inmyhead]

Let's see, my first attempt was when I was 11. OD, didn't know what I was doing obviously and just grabbed a packet of pills then took them all. Woke up the next day fine and told nobody.

When I was 14 I bought some paracetamol and ibuprofen, then proceeded to take every pill in the house at the time. Vomited a lot and ended up in hospital for a couple of nights.

20 I took an (accidental or on purpose) OD on propranolol, had a cardiac arrest and had to be brought back. Was placed in a medically induced coma and managed to make it out with no damage to my heart or brain.

23 I took another OD, called the paramedics myself and ended up in a psych ward for a short time.

25 I took another OD, this time propranolol I bought online to replicate the previous one. Almost got there but SI kicked in.

31 took an OD a few weeks ago, called the paramedics myself stupidly. Tried partial hanging and it didn't work. Tried full and SI kicked in otherwise it would have worked. Regretting that decision massively and the next time I'm alone I'm doing it.

 

[DurkheimsCat]

1: didn't cut deep enough
2: the helium wasn't pure so I just got light headed.
Planning on N2 now.

 

[InTheDarkAlone]

Four attempts
1. Slit my forearm but got caught (was a teen)
2. OD attempt on sleeping pills, barfed and woke up
3. Alcohol sleep aid and partial hanging, just didn't pass out
4. CO poisoning, poor implementation

 

[fowlbandit]

Four attempts
1. Slit my forearm but got caught (was a teen)
2. OD attempt on sleeping pills, barfed and woke up
3. Alcohol sleep aid and partial hanging, just didn't pass out
4. CO poisoning, poor implementation

How do you get past the SI for slitting your forearm?

 

[InTheDarkAlone]

How do you get past the SI for slitting your forearm?

I got angry and drunk because my girlfriend left me. I didn't get all the way into my arm just deep

 

[WaitingAllMyLife]

Let's see, my first attempt was when I was 11. OD, didn't know what I was doing obviously and just grabbed a packet of pills then took them all. Woke up the next day fine and told nobody.

When I was 14 I bought some paracetamol and ibuprofen, then proceeded to take every pill in the house at the time. Vomited a lot and ended up in hospital for a couple of nights.

20 I took an (accidental or on purpose) OD on propranolol, had a cardiac arrest and had to be brought back. Was placed in a medically induced coma and managed to make it out with no damage to my heart or brain.

23 I took another OD, called the paramedics myself and ended up in a psych ward for a short time.

25 I took another OD, this time propranolol I bought online to replicate the previous one. Almost got there but SI kicked in.

31 took an OD a few weeks ago, called the paramedics myself stupidly. Tried partial hanging and it didn't work. Tried full and SI kicked in otherwise it would have worked. Regretting that decision massively and the next time I'm alone I'm doing it.

How much propanalol did you take? Are you already on it regularly? Thank you for sharing.

 

[crimsonpool]

ive only had countless half assed attempts at suffocating myself which obviously didnt work - i would stop once i got lightheaded+too scared. i wouldn't try that again because it doesn't work and just makes me feel weird, next time will be something a lot more lethal

 

[justwantpeace520]

Two, both were impulse and neither was planned out well as I was younger and had no idea resources like this existed. Guess this is a good enough way for a first post

First one, I had gotten into a car accident a few months prior and had about a 2 1/2 month supply of both muscle relaxers and painkillers. Was going through some major issues, and just downed all the pills within a minute or so of each other. In about ten minutes, I was shaky, and I remember laying on the floor, and that's it. Apparently someone, still don't know who, called 911 and woke up four days later at the hospital. No short term or long term consequences from it, and a little after I came too, a priest (was a religious hospital, the closest) came to talk to me and asked if I did it intentionally, told him no, I just finish playing basketball and was in pain and didn't realize how much I took (they only found one of the 3 bottles and assumed I had been taking them regularly I guess), which he believed, and I was released a few days later, no suicide watch or anything.

Second was a bit more recently but still a whiles back, and looking back, was probably one of the stupidest methods I've thought about and not sure why I thought it would work. I'd heard stories of people using Visine to kill their SOs and another of a woman dying from water intoxication to win a Wii, decided to combine the two with minimal research. I downed about five-six bottles of Visine and drank 4 gallons of water (about 15 litres for those metric folk) in about 20-30 minutes and just sat in my car, watching an episode of a show, and passed out near the end. Woke up about 16 hours later, absolutely pissed the hell out of myself (car smelt bad for weeks) and just felt no more drowsy and tired than someone who sleeps that long would. Did catch a UTI as it burned when I peed, but I'm sure that was due to me constantly pissing myself in my sleep, but that was it.

Since then, I hadn't even considered the thought of ending it until recent issues, which led me to finding this outlet, and considering it soon with either CO or HS in the car.

 

[inmyhead]

How much propanalol did you take? Are you already on it regularly? Thank you for sharing.

Which time? First time I am unsure, second time also can't remember sadly as it was 5.5 years ago. Last and final time was 75 x 40mg tablets but I obviously failed.

 

[willitpass]

3 true ones, plus a bunch of baby ones in between. Always SI that saved me.

1. Partial hanging- passed out at least 5 times but would wake up every time standing on my feet due to my body doing anything possible to take the pressure off. I was incredibly close to successful but the last time I woke up it was so excruciatingly painful due to the pressure in my head that my body would not let me pull the rope again. I ended up calling for help.

2. Drowning/hypothermia- Went into a river and over a dam in February in ~35F water. I thought going over the dam would knock me unconscious but it didn't, I swam to shore, laid there in the water for a few minutes waiting for hypothermia to set in but it wasn't working fast enough so I walked to the pedestrian path and was found by someone on a walk who called the police.

3. SN- Was nearly successful but I texted someone I was dying and they called 911. I had to be given CPR so were it not for me calling for help I would have died.

Plus some baby ones, such as swallowing a nail while in a mental hospital that did nothing, partial while in a mental hospital but was found before I even passed out, and just some other stupid stuff that never would have worked.

 

[charlotte_]

None sadly, I'm too much of a coward. Also, I have no access to painless methods.

 

[InaudibleEcho]

All of them were unsuccessful because I backed out.
I don't really remember the order but I know I tried to fully suspend twice but couldn't kick the chair because I realized I wasn't secured to a stable structure. I also tried to drown myself in the bath but it was a bit too much. I also tried to choke myself out with a belt but called a hotline, which made me feel guilty.
Anything else I tried I'd qualify more as sh.

 

[Her's]

I tried it twice 5 years ago.

Overdosing - I was just a stupid teenager and didn't know what to take, so I took a lot of meds at random and went to sleep because I was too afraid to notice I was dying, woke up 20 hours later all puked, and disgusting

Partial Hanging - I was a fat fuck back then and most likely didn't know how to tie a proper knot, blacked out, and "woke up" what i assume it was 5 minutes later, thank god without any major issues

 

[nothere123]

I've had 2 attempts.
Overdose -before I realized the statistics on overdosing.
CO poisoning -survival instinct got the best of me. I should've used something to help drift off to sleep.

Does anyone think they'll try the same method and do it better/successfully next time? Or would you do a different method?

I've overdosed twice. The second time I nearly died by taking all my prescription medication but my mum ( the abuser and reason I have BPD found me). Next time I attempt I will try hanging

 

[soft-flower345]

4, 2 by overdose and 2 by cutting.
I failed the OD's because I didn't know how to do it correctly.
Failing my 2 cutting SA's was due to a little ignorance and chance. I didn't know the ulnar artery is buried a lot deeper in your wrist than radial. Anxiety led to improper execution of opening my brachial on my forearm, I think the degree of depth was correct though.