Discussion How many attempts have you made?

[notreallyhuman]

I'm not sure what really counts as a proper attempt so I'm not sure if I've had any. I did try to hang myself when I was like 12 but I didn't tie to knot on the rope properly at all so it slipped down really fast and didn't work.

Then when I was about 14 I would set it up for me to die and just sit there and push into the rope till my vision would go blurry, planning to do it "any day now" till it got old and I backed out. Then set it up again at 17 and intended very much to go through with it and tested a little it would work, but got hit with bad survival instinct and guilt over my mothers reaction so I told someone and it resulted in an ambulance being called.

I have the date planned for next time however and this time I really mean it no backing out.

 

[MyShadow]

I am embarrassed to say that any so-called attempt that I made was half-assed because either I didn't follow through or had no idea what I was doing, so I will say zero.

The pain was there but so was the survival instinct.

 

[Irisse]

Two impulsive ones and one fully planned (it involved jumping off a bridge but I couldn't climb over the rails as my legs felt like lead due to SI).

 

[Liebestod]

I tried to choke myself with my belt once but besides that zero.