Are you holding off CTB for the sake of others? If you feel like sharing- Who? How long have you been holding on for? Do you think you can continue to hold on for them? Do you get pissed off when people call suicide selfish? Especially if you have been holding on for a long period?
I'm holding on for my Dad. Before that, it was him and other loved ones. I've had ideation for 33 years although- to varying intensities. The last few years have been especially difficult. I hope I can just limp on through to the finish line now although- I have to confess, my personal situation isn't as trying as some people here. It's still not going to be a picnic though!
It really annoys me when people just automatically label suicides as selfish though. They usually have no idea about how much that person has suffered, all the things they might have tried or considered to avoid CTB and how long they have lived with all that.
It almost makes you think it's worth ringing up all the people you are holding on for daily and saying: It was an awful day again but you know what? I'm doing it all for you. I wonder how quickly they'd tire of being made to feel guilty.
I'm holding on for my Dad. Before that, it was him and other loved ones. I've had ideation for 33 years although- to varying intensities. The last few years have been especially difficult. I hope I can just limp on through to the finish line now although- I have to confess, my personal situation isn't as trying as some people here. It's still not going to be a picnic though!
It really annoys me when people just automatically label suicides as selfish though. They usually have no idea about how much that person has suffered, all the things they might have tried or considered to avoid CTB and how long they have lived with all that.
It almost makes you think it's worth ringing up all the people you are holding on for daily and saying: It was an awful day again but you know what? I'm doing it all for you. I wonder how quickly they'd tire of being made to feel guilty.
