Discussion How long will you be on here?

[mortalityisbadass]

I'm going to probably be gone by the end of the year (hopefully), my life is getting worse and worse by the second. Which makes me probably going to ctb soon i think either may or april is the earliest i'm going to do next time. How long do you guys think you will be on here/in this world?

As long as I can bear it, chronic illness makes it difficult.

 

[pointblank]

I wish I could be alone already so that I can my poison of choice shipped to me.

 

[NonEssential]

I'm starting school again in a week (something I haven't done in years) maybe it will help me with employment and other things. Though if things don't end up well, I bought some rope a few months ago just in case.

 

[Anonymousa]

I have no idea cus of being trapped home. I hope I can find some way to ctb or settle with recovery and the ctb later in life anyways when I have more freedom cus I think life is too long.

 

[mirisasofia09]

I think I will die the day of my birthday or the month of my birthday or the day we Remember the death of my maternal grandmother or of my mother. It all depends on my emotional state.

 

[kvorumese]

If nothing goes completely wrong, I still have to stay alive for at least 5-6 years. Maybe in that time frame I'll find that I want to live. Hopefully not.

 

[WatchmeBurn]

I did meet that first benchmark - both parents now dead. And I have the same thought - the right to die. How much longer I don't know, but no children, or SO, (just 3 siblings) makes it hard. The future, personal and existential, appears bleak.

I think people with incurable and unbearable suffering definitely deserve the right to die a peaceful and dignified death.

I've tried every mental health treatment out there: 14 medications, about 5 types of long-term therapy with maybe 7-8 therapists. None of it worked and I'm worse than ever.

I think I've earnt that right, at this point.

Though my personal philosophy is that it's not the right decision to take until one has exhausted all treatment options they have access to.

 

[Valhala]

I don't know, if I could be with her again, the only woman I truly loved in my life, I would stop thinking about CTB despite the meaninglessness of existence because she would give me that minimum meaning to continue my life in order to be with her.

 

[fawnfurever]

Hopefully until fall of this year. I will spend the rest of this time finishing up some responsibilities, getting a job, enjoy shows and movies, and above all pretend all is fine as I sort out getting meto and SN. By fall I can probably find a time and place to CTB

 

[bleeding_heart_show]

Until I get bored or off myself.

The former option is most likely due to cowardice.

 

[backtoearth]

God knows at this point, when I joined in 2023 I was planning on getting the info I needed to CTB before xmas... but well, you can see how that went considering I am still posting here lol - maybe this year will be the one that I finally put myself first

 

[AuroraB]

when my money is gone, i'm done.
if i get a serious disease or enjoyment-destroying injury or there's a global food shortage with urban chaos before my $ run out, i'm done. if trump sends in the nazis or anything resembling "the handmaid's tale" is about to happen, i'm done.