How long will my ED take to kill me?

[Braindead Atheist]

It's ok if no one can answer this, but I have been battling bulimia off and on for the past couple years and recently decided to take it up a notch. I've started taking a fat burner in the daytime to suppress my appetite and then I drink a bunch of caffeine and eat something very small or nothing. After my appetite returns, I eat a normal amount (600-1200 calories) and then purge. I'd say I purge between twice a day and 3 times a week. If I keep this up, how long do you think I have? I get a nosebleed every so often when I purge and then I've developed a sore throat, acid reflux, and cough.

Is the end near? Or should I go at it harder?

 

[TapeMachine]

I was bulimic from 18 until about 27-29 years old, so about a decade. I purged 6+ times a day, every day, for several of those years.

I had been hoping it'd kill me too; but all I really got was a swollen face and a mouth full of damaged teeth (that ended up costing me around $10,000 over the years to repair.)

I really sympathize with you, because I remember how utterly despondent I was back in those days. It's such a horrible frame of mind to exist within, and I hate to imagine anyone feeling the way I did.

But I wouldn't rely on bulimia as a method for ctb, honestly.

 

[Braindead Atheist]

I was bulimic from 18 until about 27-29 years old, so about a decade. I purged 6+ times a day, every day, for several of those years.

I had been hoping it'd kill me too; but all I really got was a swollen face and a mouth full of damaged teeth (that ended up costing me around $10,000 over the years to repair.)

I really sympathize with you, because I remember how utterly despondent I was back in those days. It's such a horrible frame of mind to exist within, and I hate to imagine anyone feeling the way I did.

But I wouldn't rely on bulimia as a method for ctb, honestly.

There has to be some way to die from it. I heard you can deplete your potassium levels and have a heart attack. I've also heard you can tare your esophagus and die that way. I'll have to do more research on it though.

 

[TapeMachine]

There has to be some way to die from it. I heard you can deplete your potassium levels and have a heart attack. I've also heard you can tare your esophagus and die that way. I'll have to do more research on it though.

Oh, I'm sure my electrolyte levels were all kinds of fucked back then; and my esophagus suffered greatly. But I'm still very much alive.

I just don't think it's a reliable method for ctb. But you are your own person and can do as you please, of course. I wish you the best.

 

[NightshadeDreamer]

I had an ED in high school and it comes and goes still. Now is particularly bad. But bulimia never was good. I'd use bulimia as my back up if I couldn't get away with eating (family events, people forced me etc). Bulimia barely has a chance of causing you to ctb, but it can cause deficiency in nutrition and essential vitamins.
I personally wouldn't rely on bulimia to ctb.

 

[Braindead Atheist]

Update: I purged twice last night and had a nose bleed. Today I had only coffee and an orange and took weight loss supplements. I started having a mild pain in my calve muscle and a mild cramp in my fore arm and then my head, hands, arms and legs, started feeling tingly and numb my heart was going really fast and I passed out and threw up. My parents are making me stop taking the supplements, and while it was scary and scared everyone I truly wish I had just died.

My leg still feels weird and I feel light headed. My heard actually feels funny as well. I hope I die tonight, because I don't want to deal with people being mad at me for this. I don't want to talk to anyone outside ss. I really just want to shut everything out and sleep. I feel so angry at everything. I wish people would stop judging me and F themselves. I hate people and I hate life.

 

[Braindead Atheist]

Up date, my heart feels funny, I have a weird pain in my calve and my arms and head feel really light and tingly. I feel nauseous and I'm actually scared. I just want things to either go better or to die peacefully and for there to be a happy afterlife.

 

[tiredangelgirl]

unfortunately this isn't a reliable way to ctb. it's a really slow way of your body failing you and falling apart.

I was bulimic for a long time but about 3 years consistently at the longest point with no breaks. all I got was damaged teeth (when beforehand my teeth were so beautiful I always got compliments) and HORRIBLE HORRIBLE stomach issues from trying to eat normally again. i've been in recovery since 3 years ago and I still have terrible issues with digestion. my body got used to not digesting anything for so long, it forgot how to do that job. I eat a tiny bite of something and my stomach would instantly bloat up like a pregnant person, and I would get heartburn and sometimes throw up. not pretty, I def don't recommend it.
I really wouldn't rely on this method at all, it's slow painful and unpredictable. we're here for you but if that's your end goal, I would really stray away from this

 

[sulli]

anorexia has yet to kill me either

 

[peanuts]

This chick eventually died, but lived like this for many years. I can imagine it was a very very painful last 10 years, and especially the last few days.



I think it's weird with eating disorders, you get some people who die a few short years after the onset. You get others like that ashley isaacs lady and eugenia who go on forever.

 

[Braindead Atheist]

This chick eventually died, but lived like this for many years. I can imagine it was a very very painful last 10 years, and especially the last few days.



I think it's weird with eating disorders, you get some people who die a few short years after the onset. You get others like that ashley isaacs lady and eugenia who go on forever.

I truly believe I almost died yesterday

 

[yobba]

Had bullimia for several years. Anorexia before that. While I feel dead inside, my body just seems to keep going even though I'm suppose to have a higher risk of heart attacks. Now I'm still stuck living with bad acid reflux and nausea.

 

[Ashu]

Shit, and here I thought you meant erectile dysfunction. Which does kill, not infrequently.

 

[metalpi]

There has to be some way to die from it. I heard you can deplete your potassium levels and have a heart attack. I've also heard you can tare your esophagus and die that way. I'll have to do more research on it though.

Don't eat?

 

[Braindead Atheist]

Don't eat?

Yeah I'll try it next time I get really mad about BS