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Okami

Student
Mar 16, 2018
124
My mother committed suicide when I was 9, and my dad has been in and out of prison my entire life. I've only seen him a few times, and want nothing to do with him.

For a few years my family consisted of my grandmother and grandfather, before the latter passed away when I was 12 or 13, leaving me with just the former. She's often very unsympathetic about my physical and mental condition, and despite us living together I wouldn't consider us close at all. We hardly speak to each other since I stay in my room for the majority of each day.
 
couldntthinkofaname

couldntthinkofaname

Mage
Aug 31, 2018
565
my family is nice as long as you dont have real problems

if you get real probleme though you are on
your own - nobody gives a fuck about your problems. no empathy whatsoever. i feel like im drowning but noone is throwing me a lifebelt in the water bc its just too much effort. they dont say it directly but i can feel it who they are just straight annoyed from me. as long as they dont experience the same struggle as me they wont understand me

the problem is id probably be the same if things were the other way around.
 
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Damn

Manic - depression
Aug 27, 2018
49
How is the relationship with your family?
You get along with your parents? Brothers, sisters, etc ...?

In my case I do not get along very well with my parents, but I recognize that it is my fault, I am a very, very irritable person and more when I am depressed, I do not have siblings and I do not have any contact with my cousins.

I hate them but I am a c##t, but they are lovely people and everyone thinks so, dad #1 was violent and I'm the only one who remembers it everyone else says I'm lying. (punched my pregnant mum down, kick to the floor as a kid to many times) But he will always listen and cares a lot for the family just had a harsh up bringing dad#2 wants 5k to prove I'm his & said the only reason he didn't get in contact was because it's too dangerous for me an "every day I get up I'm a lucky man!!".. Complete shite an much more, mum loves me too much but also loved drugs an took a big chunk of my youth with her depression, couldn't get an abortion till too late in the ire, I bring anything up they just tell me to shut up cos I "just chat sh!t" etc sisters are very supportive of mum I'm glad because I just can't anymore, a bit of me died their, mates from school used to kick the siht outta me till I could get drugs then theirs normally something wanted, but after they found out I could be bi it's back to square one, in I am just a creep, nearly every girl I've met has fcuked me over, cheated, lied, or given serious reason to not trust, ("should just dump him" all the time, commitment isn't important, best mates partner etc etc), but everyone loves my family and not normally me so im genuinely sure it's me who's just the lieing bit of sh!t not them and all my memorys just didn't happen.
 
Damn

Damn

Manic - depression
Aug 27, 2018
49
My mother committed suicide when I was 9, and my dad has been in and out of prison my entire life. I've only seen him a few times, and want nothing to do with him.

For a few years my family consisted of my grandmother and grandfather, before the latter passed away when I was 12 or 13, leaving me with just the former. She's often very unsympathetic about my physical and mental condition, and despite us living together I wouldn't consider us close at all. We hardly speak to each other since I stay in my room for the majority of each day.
Holy sh!t I've just read your post, you must be like some kind of super strong rock God to go through that, seriously I feel like my problems are so tiny and insignificant in comparison.. . I send my strength too you. Xx
 
namelessx

namelessx

Member
Sep 4, 2018
34
they are treating me like a shit, always telling me to kill myself because they don't need me. mentally & physically abused. well yeah i guess we have a really great relationship .
 
couldntthinkofaname

couldntthinkofaname

Mage
Aug 31, 2018
565
they are treating me like a shit, always telling me to kill myself because they don't need me. mentally & physically abused. well yeah i guess we have a really great relationship .

they tell you to kill yourself? like literally
 
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namelessx

namelessx

Member
Sep 4, 2018
34
they tell you to kill yourself? like literally

"it'll be better if you're dead" "i regret that i gave birth to you" "you are useless, webare just wasting money for ur school, it'll be better if you're dead"

they actually tell that to me in our native language . most of the times it's my mom who was forcing me to kill my self , she's always embarassing me.infront of peoples calling me stupid, idot, brainless, etc. there are time that I just want to kill myself infront of her to show her how hurt i am. damn y am i crying .
 
couldntthinkofaname

couldntthinkofaname

Mage
Aug 31, 2018
565
"it'll be better if you're dead" "i regret that i gave birth to you" "you are useless, webare just wasting money for ur school, it'll be better if you're dead"

they actually tell that to me in our native language . most of the times it's my mom who was forcing me to kill my self , she's always embarassing me.infront of peoples calling me stupid, idot, brainless, etc. there are time that I just want to kill myself infront of her to show her how hurt i am. damn y am i crying .


how old are you
 
couldntthinkofaname

couldntthinkofaname

Mage
Aug 31, 2018
565
can't. i have no place to go. got no friends to count on

cant u afford a place on your own? work?

or i dont know where you live but here people who are unemployement get supported financial by the state for rent and living costs
 
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Phro

Student
Sep 1, 2018
183
My mother and I aren't on speaking terms. I text with my sister once every month or two. My aunt texts weekly but she admits that she's run out of things to say.
 
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Brokenanddeadinside

Brokenanddeadinside

Specialist
Aug 8, 2018
395
Only person in my family I care about really is my father. I am a only child and my mother was killed in a motorcycle accident after being ran over after car caused the accident when I was 8 months old.
 
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akosineenee

akosineenee

Invisible idiot
Aug 22, 2018
224
Parents passed away. Only child. Alienated relatives. Never knew my biological parents. Basically, non-existent.
 

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