Krieger
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- Apr 16, 2022
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being in a mental hospital worsened my suicidal ideation. the therapy was a joke. we played stupid games like guess the song jeopardy and writes our goals on frogs. i was surrounded by criminals… it made me hopeless for mental health help.So i have tried and failed to ctb, my mom doesn't want me to go to a mental hospital because she's scared of them and don't want to cause me harm
How are they really? Maybe it'll be the rest i so desperately need or maybe it's a worse hell than what i am living in
To those who went or know, please enlighten me
I can add more. Mental hospitals in Poland are terrible. Once a woman was literally almost raped in front of my eyes and personnel didn't give a shit in a mental hosptial. The opressor said to me that he will try to rape me next time for sure but fortunately he didn't do this to me. It was just like a prison. Personnel was extremely rude and unkind. Food was terrible. I think it was even spoiled few times. If somebody didn't behave "well" personnel would forcefully tie them on to a bed even for a whole day. Instead of healing me mental hospital gave me even more traumas.In my motherland - terrible. The most terrible place in the World. If I had to come back to a mental hospital I would kill myself instantly in any way.
Oh god, that's horrible. How are you feeling now?I can add more. Mental hospitals in Poland are terrible. Once a woman was literally almost raped in front of my eyes and personnel didn't give a shit in a mental hosptial. The opressor said to me that he will try to rape me next time for sure but fortunately he didn't do this to me. It was just like a prison. Personnel was extremely rude and unkind. Food was terrible. I think it was even spoiled few times. If somebody didn't behave "well" personnel would forcefully tie them on to a bed even for a whole day. Instead of healing me mental hospital gave me even more traumas.
It was about 5 years ago so I managed to partially recover from that experience... My mother wasn't able to comprehend these things but she gave me as much support as she could even if she was depressed & addicted too. She died one year afterwards... However after my last suicide attempt in June 2022 I self-diagnosed myself as autistic. I gained power and will to life. I received some support from autistic community. However lately I went back to square one and I feel suicidal again... I threw myself into an addiction again.Oh god, that's horrible. How are you feeling now?
I'm sorry for your loss. Keep staying strong!It was about 5 years ago so I managed to partially recover from that experience... My mother wasn't able to comprehend these things but she gave me as much support as she could even if she was depressed & addicted too. She died one year afterwards... However after my last suicide attempt in June 2022 I self-diagnosed myself as autistic. I gained power and will to life. I received some support from autistic community. However lately I went back to square one and I feel suicidal again... I threw myself into an addiction again.