SanctionedSquad
Infinite Child
- Mar 4, 2023
- 148
I really don't understand it, a person fails an attempt, gets locked up, then their mental health gets worse there so they lie and can get out faster and are more likely to ctb then cause they got treated like an animal.
I was locked up in psych wards 2 times and I hated the people there, how they think they can choose when I can get out and whatever, call me evil but I wish that they get traumatized so they finally know how it feels instead of judging me.
I really don't understand how they think locking soneone in a small room without distraction or going out should help anyone.
I even harmed myself there after a long time cause it was the obly distraction without my phone, good job psych ward idiots.
I also hate it how they take my phone away, it is a substitute for imagination for me, without it I can just think about how I got abused, but hey it is "a bad addiction and I have to get rid of it" instead of fucking focussing on my real problems.
The people who judged me there don't know what pain is, they probably got hone after treating humans like animals in a zoo and watch a movie with their famil, knows what I can't do that cause most of my family members are dead or assholes but hey at least my very bad addiction to my phobe gets cured.
It is one of the things that makes me enormously angry, I get more punishment for trying to ctb than someone who tortures their cat or watches child porn in my country, I hate those fucking medieval rules, those people should go there instead of me.
How about after a failed attempt offering someone psychological help ibstead of forcing them to sonething?
It is so unfair, I get punished for ctb but everyone who has beaten the shit out of me in school because I am autistic doesn't get punished, this weird justice just makes me want to ctb more.
I was locked up in psych wards 2 times and I hated the people there, how they think they can choose when I can get out and whatever, call me evil but I wish that they get traumatized so they finally know how it feels instead of judging me.
I really don't understand how they think locking soneone in a small room without distraction or going out should help anyone.
I even harmed myself there after a long time cause it was the obly distraction without my phone, good job psych ward idiots.
I also hate it how they take my phone away, it is a substitute for imagination for me, without it I can just think about how I got abused, but hey it is "a bad addiction and I have to get rid of it" instead of fucking focussing on my real problems.
The people who judged me there don't know what pain is, they probably got hone after treating humans like animals in a zoo and watch a movie with their famil, knows what I can't do that cause most of my family members are dead or assholes but hey at least my very bad addiction to my phobe gets cured.
It is one of the things that makes me enormously angry, I get more punishment for trying to ctb than someone who tortures their cat or watches child porn in my country, I hate those fucking medieval rules, those people should go there instead of me.
How about after a failed attempt offering someone psychological help ibstead of forcing them to sonething?
It is so unfair, I get punished for ctb but everyone who has beaten the shit out of me in school because I am autistic doesn't get punished, this weird justice just makes me want to ctb more.