sorlox
preparations...
- Dec 1, 2023
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I've decided to CTB, but i struggle with a method. There is no way i'm getting any gun or meds/chemicals. So i have these options: hanging, cutting and jumping.
Cutting is pretty painless (imo), convenient and peaceful, yet there's a low chance it will be lethal.
For jumping - i have access to a rooftop on a 6-floor building, however, i don't think it's reliable enough, even if i land on my head. There is a little layer of snow on the ground, and also it isn't very convenient.
Hanging isn't peaceful at all, but quite reliable. I wonder what kind of hanging is better - with fall or without it. It will be pretty painful without fall, but i'll get my result. Hanging with fall, however, can kill me immediately, but comes with risk. If rope isn't long enough, that will butcher my face and i don't die immediately. If rope is too long, that will behead me, which i'm not sure how to feel about.
What also bothers me is a SI factor, which will 100% intervene. I'm not sure how to suppress it (alcohol? meds?).
I'll accept any advice and thoughts about my methods. <3
Cutting is pretty painless (imo), convenient and peaceful, yet there's a low chance it will be lethal.
For jumping - i have access to a rooftop on a 6-floor building, however, i don't think it's reliable enough, even if i land on my head. There is a little layer of snow on the ground, and also it isn't very convenient.
Hanging isn't peaceful at all, but quite reliable. I wonder what kind of hanging is better - with fall or without it. It will be pretty painful without fall, but i'll get my result. Hanging with fall, however, can kill me immediately, but comes with risk. If rope isn't long enough, that will butcher my face and i don't die immediately. If rope is too long, that will behead me, which i'm not sure how to feel about.
What also bothers me is a SI factor, which will 100% intervene. I'm not sure how to suppress it (alcohol? meds?).
I'll accept any advice and thoughts about my methods. <3