Venting how do you truly know if you want to get better?

[kazuichisouda10jr]

ive been to the mental hospital countless times, and they always told me "you need to want to get help." i cant force myself to want it but at the same time i dont want to suffer anymore. i feel like i will never know if i want to recover. does anyone else deal with thi s

 

[ppyppyppy]

1) If you want to get out of the situation you're in and you understand death is not the only way out of it.

2) Active effort. Arguably the hardest part.

 

[AmanSilvers]

I've been there too. I don't know if this is helpful at all to you, but I recently just decided to try fixing myself and I'm going to try and find a therapist that seems right for me. I am not feeling very hopeful about it, honestly. It's between blasting myself into oblivion and finding the tiniest little ember of hope that might carry me into a life that doesn't totally suck.
I don't really know though, which is maybe obvious considering what forum we're on right now, heh.
Wishing you the best.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I feel like there has to be an acknowledgement that the lion's share of the effort will need to come from us. So- we need to be willing to do more positive, life improving things. Otherwise- it's kind of like wanting to win the lottery but not buying a ticket.

I don't think the effort always has to be enormous. Just choosing the better of the options in a scenario- bed rot or, get up and wash. Gorge on junk food or eat healthily. Doom scroll or engage in education, a hobby or exercise. I imagine we all more or less know what we should be doing.

Maybe acknowledge that it could be a long path with lots of ups and downs. That sometimes doing the right actions may not reward us sufficiently in the short- term.

I think what used to help me was having ambition at least. A reason to stay alive. For me, for a long while, pursuing a creative job was a strong drive for me. I think having something to work towards can help. Although, I'm not sure you can just magic that about.

 

[Lemon Ice Cube]

My belief is that no sane person would want to CTB, if they could live under different circumstances. What are these circumstances for you? And what are small steps that you can take to get closer?

Similarly to trying a restrictive diet, motivation falters from time to time. Having concrete dates to look forward to can be that little push you need to try just one more day. Like the release date of a movie. Something small like that.

Getting better is essentially a lifestyle change. Just like trying to lose weight, temporary quick fixes won't cut it. Therapists, medication, and a support group are tools to assist you with that.

Wishing the very best for you