How do you plan to write your final note, if you decide to leave one?

[slowlybreaking]

Just out of curiosity, I wonder if you guys plan in advance, wrote something in the moment or just didn't write anything at all (if we're talking about failed attempts that is)?

My late boyfriend wrote his the night he decided to ctb, apparently my name was all over the note but his family wouldn't let me see the full writing -and I respect that; knowing I made him the happiest during his darkest days is enough- just the paragraph that was specifically addressed to me. I've started writing mine almost a week after his passing when I made up my mind; I realized I'm losing my mind bit by bit after the fact and given his best friend took a hard hit after not being mentioned at all, I wouldn't want to leave anyone out by the time I decide it's my turn to go and it's too late to write something coherent.

edit: modified the title like 5 times because my english ain't english-ing

 

[hughmun9]

For my previous more impulsive attempts I didn't write anything at all. I did write a note in advance for my next attempt with an exit bag:
"
I was not assisted in any way. [Signature]

It is no one's fault. If anyone feels guilty for not contacting me lately, please don't. I did not want to speak to anyone in the past few months. If you would've called I would not have answered, and I might've sent a text saying: "sorry, I don't really want to talk right now". There's nothing anyone could've said or done to change my mind.

Do what you will with the body. No butt stuff though.
"

 

[Enyan]

I've pre-written notes on my phone, then transferred what I wanted to say onto paper (since I think handwritten goodbye letters are more personal).

I'm actually leaving more than just a note for my boyfriend though; it's kinda like a booklet. It starts with the "note" and then has some printed out photos, old tickets, etc. as some kind of "here's some wonderful memories we had together". I hope it helps him, even if only a little bit. But holy shit it hurts working on it, if grief could kill I'd have died already

 

[mob]

I find I can express myself best through poetry, so if I do decide to write a note, it'd be a poem.

And I'm sorry to hear about your late boyfriend's passing